after several days of struggling to stay awake (partly i know its the new higher powered pain medication i started last thursday), this morning at 4 am i woke up with one of my "cant get back to sleep" insomnias. generally if i get insomnia its of this type. really, the two insomnias need different names – i hate that whenever i talk about insomnia i have to clarify what type. . . anyone have suggestions for a clearer name for them?
actually, in the end it wasnt so bad – i was free to transition to consciousness unhurriedly. i meditated some, "successfully" for the first time in a while; then i had a very slow breakfast of nurungji [burnt rice porridge] (slow is the only way i can eat these days – the bowl of porridge took me a good 45 minutes), and by the time i was walking to the hospital i was even smiling to myself in pouring rain.
admittedly the rain helped. im very weird, and show my northern california origins: rain is without fail comforting.
