Of course, it always happens. But sometimes it's worse than others… I think it has to do with time of day at departure and arrival, as well as number of time zones, etc. When I went back to the US, it didn't seem so bad. It's really bad, this time. But… at least this time, I don't have to be working or doing anything… I deliberately gave myself a wide open schedule for this return. So basically yesterday I tried my best to stay awake and do stuff, but by 6 pm I was out. And that meant that at 2 am, I was up. But not really doing anything productive. Hmm… we'll see how this goes.
I tried really hard to go back to sleep, just figuring the extra sleep couldn't hurt in trying to reset the internal clock, but I almost immediately awoke from a terrible, vivid nightmare. I haven't had a scary dream in a long time, and this one was interesting in one respect: I was having a car accident on a snowy road, while driving my truck. Interesting because the dream activated some anxieties that are always there, in winter driving, but apparently they chose not to manifest until I'd safely abandoned my truck in the US and returned to Korea. I was driving down a steep hill, like the Ramsey Street one in St Paul, maybe. Lot's of snow and ice. The car in front of me started spinning, and I stepped on the brakes only to realize I had zero traction, too. I went over a cliff in my little truck.
Anyway, that was the end of trying to sleep more.
I'm not in the mood to write. I'm trying to get into the mode of studying my Korean again… but that's feeling desperate and difficult, at the moment.
More later.