well, this weekend i haven’t been feeling well. and plunged into a rather dark depression. i know what it’s about–the whole work thing, y’know? the feeling that i made a bad decision, signing the contract. overwhelmed with the hours. angry about various things, and not able to manage that anger properly.
it makes me mad that one of the reasons i wanted to stay in korea was so i could keep building on my korean language skill… but ive been so overwhelmed with work and the hours grading papers, that since the start of september i’ve devoted exactly one hour to study. i feel too exhausted most of the time to push on it, although in august and especially before that, in july, i felt like i was finally making some amazing forward progress.
i’m really not sure what to do. i’ll just wait this demon out, and hopefully things will smooth out at work a bit.