Caveat: ensnarement

To Be a Good Buddhist Is Ensnarement

The Zen priest says I am everything I am not.
In order to stop resisting, I must not attempt to stop resisting.
I must believe there is no need to believe in thoughts.
Oblivious to appetites that appear to be exits, and also entrances.
What is there to hoard when the worldly realm has no permanent vacancies?
Ten years I’ve taken to this mind fasting.
My shadow these days is bare.
It drives a stranger, a good fool.
Nothing can surprise.
Clarity is just questioning having eaten its fill.

– Jenny Xie (American poet, b?)

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: the patient daemon behind the screen of sea-rock and sky

The Bed By The Window

I chose the bed downstairs by the sea-window for a good death-bed
When we built the house, it is ready waiting,
Unused unless by some guest in a twelvemonth, who hardly suspects
Its latter purpose. I often regard it,
With neither dislike nor desire; rather with both, so equalled
That they kill each other and a crystalline interest
Remains alone. We are safe to finish what we have to finish;
And then it will sound rather like music
When the patient daemon behind the screen of sea-rock and sky
Thumps with his staff, and calls thrice: 'Come, Jeffers.'

– Robinson Jeffers (American poet, 1887-1962)

[daily log, walking, 7.5km]

Caveat: that great big hill of hope

My blog-hosting server was down today for quite a while. So this post is late (at least, relative to the posting schedule I try to keep for myself. But here it is. I don't have much to say.

Several of my students were singing, with passable competence, a song I recognized from 25 years ago. I was surprised. But it turned out the song had been hijacked as the soundtrack for some comedy meme video that was circulating – it wasn't that they'd decided to go retro or anything. 'Retro' is not an interesting cultural space to Koreans, in general, in my experience.

What I'm listening to right now.

4 Non Blondes, "What's Up." I remember this song as being part of my "soundtrack" during the time I was working nights at UPS while doing some graduate coursework at the University of Minnesota, and when Michelle and I got married. I think she liked this song, too.

Lyrics.

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on? ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Much sorwe I walkë with

Foulës in the frith,
The fishës in the flod,
And I mon waxë wod;
Much sorwe I walkë with
For beste of bon and blod.

– An anonymous, Middle-English lyric poem from around 1300 CE. We each walk with much sorrow.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Poems #614 and #615

There once was Moby, a white whale
and some narrator named Ishmael
and these guys on a boat
that soon failed to float
with digressions, and prose that was stale.

– this is my own “retelling in limerick form” of a well-known work of literature, quite inspired by this post on the languagehat blog, in turn inspired by some discussion on a site called wordorigins. I spent a good hour browsing the comments and links for these two sites. Entertaining. My favorites, seen at those links:

There once was a girl named Lenore
And a bird and a bust and a door
And a guy with depression
And a whole lot of questions
And the bird always says “Nevermore”

… and:

“Utnapishtim,” cried Gilgamesh, “Why
Do you get to live, while I die?”
“I can see that you’re vexed,”
[There’s a gap in the text]
The walls of Uruk are quite high!

I also enjoyed this observation, by a commenter named Trond Engen:

“A limerick needs a dose of offbeacity or else it will often sound flat.”

That comment, in turn, inspired another work of my own:

If you want limericks to have a capacity
to show anything more than verbosity
and to thusly afford
some readers unbored
Then they'll need to include some offbeacity

Caveat: Cost me all of seven cents

What I'm listening to right now.

Sesame Street Co., "The Alligator King." This is actually a really good song. Yet despite being from Sesame Street, it's probably too hard (in terms of vocabulary) to teach to my students for whom it would age-appropriate.

Lyrics.

One two three four five six seven!
Said the Alligator King to his seven sons,
"I'm feeling mighty down.
Whichever of you can cheer me up
Will get to wear my crown."

His first son brought seven oyster pearls
From the bottom of the China Sea.

The second gave him seven statues of girls
With clocks where their stomachs should be.

The third son gave him seven rubies
From the sheikdom Down There Beneath.
The King thought the rubies were cherries,
And he broke off seven of his teeth.

The fourth son tried to cheer him up
With seven lemon drops.
The King said, "I'm sorry son,
Since that ruby episode, I just haven't got the chops."

The fifth son brought the King perfume
In seven fancy silver jars;
The King took a whiff, and he broke out in spots
'Cause it smelled like cheap cigars.

The sixth son gave him seven diamond rings
To wear upon his toes.
The King snagged his foot on the royal red rug
And crumpled up his nose.

The seventh son of the Alligator King
Was a thoughtful little whelp.
He said, "Daddy, appears to me
That you could use a little help."

Said the Alligator King to his seventh son,
"My son, you win the crown.
You didn't bring me diamonds or rubies, but
You helped me up when I was down.
Take the crown; it's yours, my son.
I hope you don't mind the dents.
I got it on sale at a discount store –
Cost me all of seven cents!"

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: No fiction was it of the antique age

The Faëry Chasm

No fiction was it of the antique age:
A sky-blue stone, within this sunless cleft,
Is of the very footmarks unbereft
Which tiny Elves impressed; – on that smooth stage
Dancing with all their brilliant equipage
In secret revels – haply after theft
Of some sweet Babe – Flower stolen, and coarse Weed left
For the distracted Mother to assuage
Her grief with, as she might! – But, where, oh! where
Is traceable a vestige of the notes
That ruled those dances wild in character? –
Deep underground? Or in the upper air,
On the shrill wind of midnight? or where floats
O'er twilight fields the autumnal gossamer?

– William Wordsworth (English poet, 1770-1850)

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: my thoughts are strange

I had some weird dreams. I was in some kind of future-dystopian world where everything was subdivided into these enclosed hive-like spaces, but each space was the size of a city. So you could go from city to city via these doors in the hive walls. And most of the cities were run down, post-apocalyptic places, with gangs of wild children and insane people running things.

So I was trying to find the city where life was tolerable. It was like traversing a scaled-up version Borges' infinite library, but each room, instead of being a small study stocked with books, was a city. This might be a nice conceit for a novel. I'll get right on that.


What I'm listening to right now.

Cold, "Bleed."

Lyrics.

I'm feeling crossed, I take it inside
Burn up the pain, my thoughts are strange
Just like the things I used to know
Just like the tree that fell, I heard it
If art is still inside I feel it

I wanna' bleed, show the world all that I have inside
(I wanna' show you all the pain)
I wanna' scream, let the blood flow that keeps me alive
(I wanna' make you feel the same)

Take all these strings, they call my veins
Wrap them around, every fucking thing
Presence of people not for me
Well I must remain in tune forever
My love is music, I will marry melody

I wanna' bleed show the world all that I have inside
(I wanna' show you all the pain)
I wanna' scream let the blood flow that keeps me alive
(I wanna' make you feel the same)
I said
I wanna bleed
I wanna feel
(Show you all the pain)
I wanna scream
I wanna feel
(Make you feel the same)

Won't you let me take you for a ride
You can stop the world, try to change my mind
Won't you let me show you how it feels
You can stop the world, but you won't change me
I need music
I need music
I need music
To set me free
To let me bleed

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Non lo sbagli più

So these guys made a pop song in Italian complaining about people's failure to use the subjunctive properly. On the one hand, this is grammar peevery, and thus a linguist (such as I pretend to be on occasion) can't really be expected to approve. Grammar peevery is in fact diametrically opposed to rational, descriptive linguistics. Nevertheless, peevery can be entertaining, and it's funny to see Italians singing about grammar.

Cosa sto ascoltando al momento.

Lorenzo Baglioni, "Il Congiuntivo."

Testo.

[Intro]
Che io sia
Che io fossi
Che io sia stato
Ouooh

[Strofa 1]
Oggigiorno chi corteggia incontra sempre più difficoltà
Coi verbi al congiuntivo
Quindi è tempo di riaprire il manuale di grammatica, che è
Che è molto educativo
Gerundio, imperativo
Infinito, indicativo
Molti tempi e molte coniugazioni, ma

[Ritornello]
Il congiuntivo ha un ruolo distintivo
E si usa per eventi che non sono reali
È relativo a ciò che è soggettivo
A differenza di altri modi verbali
E adesso che lo sai anche tu
Non lo sbagli più

[Strofa 2]
Nel caso che il periodo sia della tipologia dell’irrealtà (si sa)
Ci vuole il congiuntivo
Tipo “Se tu avessi usato il congiuntivo trapassato
Con lei non sarebbe andata poi male”
Condizionale…
Segui la consecutio temporum

[Ritornello]
Il congiuntivo ha un ruolo distintivo
E si usa per eventi che non sono reali
È relativo a ciò che è soggettivo
A differenza di altri modi verbali
E adesso che lo sai anche tu
Non lo sbagli più

[Bridge]
E adesso ripassiamo un po' di verbi al congiuntivo:
Che io sia (presente)
Che io fossi (imperfetto)
Che io sia stato (passato)
Che fossi stato (trapassato)
Che io abbia (presente)
Che io avessi (imperfetto)
Che abbia avuto (passato)
Che avessi avuto (trapassato)
Che io sarei…

[Ritornello]
Il congiuntivo come ti dicevo
Si usa in questo tipo di costrutto sintattico
Dubitativo, quasi riflessivo
Descritto dal seguente esempio didattico
E adesso che lo sai anche tu
Non lo sbagli più

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: el mundo sí es así

My friend Bob asked me if I could help him make sense of the lyrics to this 18th century Mexican musical composition. Unfortunately I don't think I was much use. Anyway it was interesting to try, and interesting to see what was going on culturally in Mexico City in the 1700's.

What I'm listening to right now.

Manuel de Sumaya, "Sol-fa de Pedro," performed by Chanticleer.

Letra.

Estribillo
Sol-fa de Pedro es el llanto.
Oiga, el mundo sí es así.
Pues saben unir
los gorgeos de sus voces,
lo duro de su sentir,
del cromático explicar,
del blando y del duro herir;
qu'en el llanto dice Pedro.
He hallado lo que perdí
del sol la vez que lloré
porque me alumbró él a mí.

Copla 1
Vengan, vengan a oír,
verán el entonar en el gemir.
Vengan a oír del contrapunto
lo dulce y subtil al sol
la vez que lloré
porque me alumbró él a mí.

Estribillo
Sol-fa de Pedro es el llanto.
Oiga, el mundo si es así.
Pues saben unir
los gorgeos de sus voces,
lo duro de su sentir,
del cromático explicar,
del blando y del duro herir;
qu'en el llanto dice Pedro.
He hallado lo que perdí
del sol la vez que lloré
porque me alumbró él a mí.

Copla 2
Desde el ut la pena mía
me subió cuando caí,
a la perdida gloria
y a mí la gloria sin fin.

Estribillo
Sol-fa de Pedro es el llanto.
Oiga, el mundo si es así.
Pues saben unir
los gorgeos de sus voces,
lo duro de su sentir,
del cromático explicar,
del blando y del duro herir;
qu'en el llanto dice Pedro.
He hallado lo que perdí
del sol la vez que lloré
porque me alumbró él a mí.

– Manuel de Zumaya (compositor mexicano, 1678 – 1755)

[daily log: walking, 7.5km]

Caveat: 映画に出てくるような 本物のヒーロー

I suppose you could say I’m a bit of a fan of the Japanese polymathic popstar Genki Sudo. I’ve posted at least 3 of his videos on this here blog before.
He and his group WORLD ORDER (all caps, please) made a new music video, darkly satirizing America’s twitterer-in-chief.
What I’m listening to right now.

WORLD ORDER, “Let’s Start World War 3.”
歌詞 (I’m not sure this all the lyrics, but it might be – the song’s actual words seem pretty short).

“We assembled here today
are issuing a new decree
to be heard in every city
in every foreign capital
and in every hall of power.
From this day forward
a new vision will govern our land.
From this day forward
it’s going to be only
America First.
America First!”

つまらない日々に 終わりを告げる男が
世界を救うため この世に遂に現れた
お金持ちで背も高い プロレスもできて頭も良い
映画に出てくるような 本物のヒーロー
Let’s start World War 3
We’re gonna have a party

あなたの金髪に 青い瞳に憧れ
僕らはどこまでも ついていきます
Let’s start World War 3
We’re gonna have a party

“Let’s grab them by the pussy”

Let’s start World War 3
Can’t break out from this feeling
Let’s start World War 3

“We will make America wealthy again
We will make America proud again
We will make America safe again
And yes, together
We will make America great again”

Translation of the Japanese part above (from the subtitles).

On a boring day
A man who speaks of the end
and wants to save the world
finally appeared
He’s rich and tall
And has a mind that can even understand WWE
Like from a real hero
Right out of a film

I yearn for your blonde hair
and blue eyes
Wherever you go
We will follow you

picture[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: No getting off this machine

I decided to spend the day making a backup file of this here blog thingy™. That’s 14 MB of just text – not even counting the pictures, which should be backed up separately (and which I still need to work on, because there’s no quick extract of those files, except in the case of the newer ones where I proactively adopted a more back-up-able storage method).

That’s what I get for 13 years of blogging.

Then, just for the hell of it, since I happen to have a webserver (apache) and appropriate database (MySQL) running on my desktop at the moment, I hacked together a wordpress instance and “published” a clone of my blog on my desktop, just to prove I still have a few technical skills. It took me about 3 hours to get a passable instance (sans local pictures) up and running. Anyway, I can say that as long as I keep my backups up-to-date, my blog is fully recoverable even if my bloghosting company meets a bad end for whatever reason. Here’s a screenshot of the CAVEATDVMPTRVCK doppelgänger I slapped together:

picture


What I’m listening to right now.

Younger Brother, “Train.”

Lyrics.

The world flashing past
So many others moving so fast
I feel my heart slow
As we go under I don’t bow down
Nothing left undecided
Upon steel on steel
Through these cuts in me I’ve
No question who was here first
Many dreams many lifetimes
Any of which could be me
Accept that I’m the one unable to move upon this machine
Upon this machine

On a caravan in motion
Alone in crowds just like me
I fell between the moments
I fell between the ideas
Cuz when it runs around the windows
Nothing here is still
All the patterns colliding
Through these villages and hills
So many dreams so many lifetimes
Any of which could be me
Accept that I’m the one unable to move upon this machine

There’s no one else, no one else, no one else, no one else
There’s no one else, no one else, no one else, no one else

There’s no one else, no one else, no one else, no one can help me now
Help me I’m stuck in this moving thing
Nothing is what it seems
No getting off this machine

picture[daily log: walking, a little]

Caveat: So it is written on the thin paper

picture

There is an immense epic poetic tradition in Tibet and Central Asia about a mythical King Gesar. There are thousands of variants in dozens of diverse languages and cultures, and the King seems to not really have been a specific historical person, although the name, at least, has been linked to the adoption among some Turkic peoples of the steppes of the title "Keser" or "Gesar" from the Byzantines, who continued using the title "Caesar" until their downfall, and who had many contacts with Mongols, Turks, and other Central Asian peoples through their long history. This has parallel in the Slavs' adoption of the same title from the same source, which became the modern word 'czar.' 

I found an interesting translation-in-progress on this website, of the Gesar epic, by a scholar of Buryat shamanism. Buryat is an ethnic group from northern Mongolia and the Baikal region of Siberia. As far as I can figure out, the scholar, Sarangerel Odigon, is working directly from some oral source – that is, the English translation is just a running translation of the oral tradition. That seems pretty cool, in itself. 

In case you haven't noticed, I've been quite 'into' Central Asian cultures, lately, especially their literary production. So here is a tiny sample of this fascinating epic poem, one of the few which still has an active performative tradition in multiple cultures. For reference, I found a Russian translation of some version of it, here. I'm sure there are interesting original-language versions out there on the web, somewhere, but my google-fu is not strong enough to find it.

From the beginning of the section entitled "Abai Geser: The First Branch":

In the earliest of early times,
In the most ancient of periods,
In the first of first times,
In the time of the beginning;
When the highest bright heaven
Was swirling with fog,
When the earth below
Was covered with dirt and dust;
When the grass had not yet begun to grow,
When the broad long rivers had not begun to flow,
When the great Milk Sea was but a small puddle,
When the world mountain Humber Ula was a hillock,
When the sandalwood tree at the forest's edge
Had not yet put out branches,
When the greyish deer was but a fawn;
When the giant yellow snake was but a little worm,
When the giant fish were only little minnows;
When the earth did not have any continents,
When the center of the universe was not yet finished;
When the great giant bird was small as a crow,
When the first horse was the size of a foal;
When the khan's many roads were not built,
When the people's many roads were not laid out;
This was a good age,
This was a beautiful time
It has been said!..

When the many gods of the heaven did not compete with each other,
When the many tenger of the skies did not quarrel with each other;
When the many tenger of the west were not arrogant,
When black and white were not different from each other;
When the many tenger of the east did not argue,
When appearance and color were not differentiated;
When Esege Malaan Tenger was not an old man,
When Ekhe Yuuren Ibii was not an old woman;
When Han Hormasta Tengeri did not brag of his strength,
When black and white were not estranged;
When Atai Ulaan Tengeri did not boast of his greatness,
When hatred and jealousy did not sow discord;
When those of Oyodol Sagaan Tengeri had not yet gathered,
When those of Oyor Sagaan Tengeri had not yet flowed over;
It was a time of beautiful things!
So it is written on the thin paper!

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: Эти облака – фиолетовая вата

что я слушаю сейчас.

Элджей & Feduk, “Розовое вино.”
текст песни.

Вступление:
– Я похож на птицу!
– На принца?
– На принца или на орла. Эй!
Я беру вторую бутылку розового вина.

Припев: Feduk
Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

Первый Куплет: Элджей
Девочка – пятница, не хочет быть сегодня одна.
Какая разница где я, не отвечаю на номера.
Можешь даже не набирать, можешь даже не набирать.
Тут угарать, я хочу угарать.

Мы уже в океане дискотек, алкоголя и мариваны.
No stress. Хаваем как M&M’s dance-dance.
Кис-кис, вдыхай меня через кес, через кес.
Моя волшебная палочка в твоих руках. Крекс-пекс!

Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Фиолетовая вата и вокруг так пиздато!

Твои кенты лошки, а я без башки,
Но не будем мы играть в кошки-мышки.
Твои ладошки уже далеко зашли.
Я хочу тебя, а еще хочу сижку.

Припев: Feduk
Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

Второй Куплет: Feduk
Я бы жил в этом лете в том самом моменте,
Когда мы летели на байке.
Эти пальмы и ветер, пальмы и ветер,
Фото пальмы в алом закате.

Мы на гребне волны скользим и катим,
Все что так долго копили – тратим.
И все что так долго копили –
Вам придется сегодня потратить. Еа!

Припев: Feduk
Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

Здесь так красиво, я перестаю дышать.
Звуки на минимум, чтобы не мешать.
Эти облака – фиолетовая вата.
Магия цветов со льдом в наших стаканах.

[daily log: walking, 1km]

Caveat: Hay que saltar del corazón al mundo

Contacto externo

Mis ojos de plaza pública
Mis ojos de silencio y de desierto
El dulce tumulto interno
La soledad que se despierta
Cuando el perfume se separa de las flores y emprende el viaje
Y el río del alma largo largo
Que no dice más ni tiempo ni espacio

Un día vendrá ha venido ya
La selva forma una sustancia prodigiosa
La luna tose
El mar desciende de su coche
Un jour viendra est déjà venu
Y Yo no digo más ni primavera ni invierno

Hay que saltar del corazón al mundo
Hay que construir un poco de infinito para el hombre

– Vicente Huidobro (poeta chileno, 1893-1948)

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: ol rait

What I'm listening to right now.

Adriano Celentano, "Prisencolinensinainciusol." This song is nonsense. Literally. It's an Italian comedian's effort, in 1972, to sing in English without using English – he said he wanted to make a song about the failure to communicate. Which makes sense – more than the song does, right? Anyway, the melody and beat are quite earwormy, actually.

Lyrics

Prisencolinensinainciusol
In de col men seivuan
prisencolinensinainciusol ol rait

Uis de seim cius nau op de seim
Ol uait men in de colobos dai
Trrr – ciak is e maind beghin de col
Bebi stei ye push yo oh

Uis de seim cius nau op de seim
Ol uoit men in de colobos dai
Not s de seim laikiu de promisdin
Iu nau in trabol lovgiai ciu gen

In do camo not cius no bai for lov so
Op op giast cam lau ue cam lov ai
Oping tu stei laik cius go mo men
Iu bicos tue men cold dobrei goris
Oh sandei

Ai ai smai sesler
Eni els so co uil piso ai
In de col men seivuan
Prisencolinensinainciusol ol rait

Ai ai smai senflecs
Eni go for doing peso ai
Prisencolinensinainciusol ol rait

Uel ai sint no ai giv de sint
Laik de cius nobodi oh gud taim lev feis go
Uis de seim et seim cius go no ben
Let de cius end kai for not de gai giast stei

Ai ai smai senflecs
Eni go for doing peso ai
In de col mein seivuan
Prisencolinensinainciusol ol rait

Lu nei si not sicidor
Ah es la bebi la dai big iour

Ai aismai senflecs
Eni go for doing peso ai
In de col mein seivuan
Prisencolinensinainciusol ol rait

Lu nei si not sicodor
Ah es la bebi la dai big iour

[dialy log: walking, 7.5km]

Caveat: Бу айыллыбыт / Арылы халлаан алын өттүгэр

Бу айыллыбыт
Арылы халлаан алын өттүгэр
Куордаах эттээх,
Куодаһыннаах уҥуохтаах,
Оһол-охсуһуу доҕордоох,
Иирээн-илбис энээрдээх,
Ириҥэ мэйиилээх,
Иһэгэй куттаах,
Икки атахтаах үөскээн тэнийдин диэн,
Анысханнаах арҕаа халлааннаах,
Иэйиэхситтээх илин халлааннаах,
Соллоҥноох соҕуруу халлааннаах,
Холоруктаах хоту халлааннаах,
Үллэр муора үрүттээх,
Түллэр муора түгэхтээх,
Аллар муора арыннаах,
Эргичийэр муора иэрчэхтээх,
Дэбилийэр муора сиксиктээх,
Ахтар айыы араҥаччылаах,
Күн айыы күрүөһүлээх,
Араҥас илгэ быйаҥнаах,
Үрүҥ илгэ үктэллээх,
Элбэх сулус эркиннээх,
Үгүс сулус үрбэлээх,
Дьэллэҥэ сулус бэлиэлээх,
Туолбут ый доҕуһуоллаах,
Аламай күн аргыстаах,
Дорҕоон этиҥ арчылаах,
Тоһуттар чаҕылҕан кымньыылаах,
Ахсым ардах ыһыахтаах,
Сугул куйаас тыыннаах,
Уолан угуттуур уулаах,
Охтон үүнэр мастаах,
Уһун уйгу кэһиилээх,
Сытар хайа сындыыстаах,
Буор хайа модьоҕолоох,
Итии сайын эркиннээх,
Эргичийэр эрэһэ кииннээх,
Төгүрүйэр түөрт тулумнаах,
Үктүөлээтэр өҕүллүбэт
Үрдүк мындаалаах,
Кэбиэлээтэр кэйбэлдьийбэт
Кэтит киэлилээх,
Баттыалаатар маталдьыйбат
Баараҕай таһаалаах,
Аҕыс иилээх-саҕалаах
Алта киспэлээх,
Атааннаах-мөҥүөннээх,
Айгырастаах-силиктээх,
Алыгыр-налыгыр
Аан-ийэ дойду диэн
Муостаах-нуоҕайдаах бэртэһэ
Туоһахтатын курдук,

The above is a fragment of a poem in the Sakha (Yakut) language, and is part of the Yakuts national traditional epic poetic oeuvre, Olonkho.
Obviously, I don’t know the Sakha (Yakut) language. On a really good day I command a few hundred words of rusty college Russian, at best.
But I like unusual languages. And I like poetry. And, if you accept the controversial Altaic hypothesis, perhaps Sakha is a very distant relative of Ancient Korean. Anyway, they’re sort of in the same cultural neighborhood, albeit a bit farther north, in east-central Siberia: today it is -41 C in Yakutsk, while here in sunny 고양시 we have a balmy -8 C.
I came across a translation of the poem on the blog of the philosopher and polymathic philologist Justin Erik Halldór Smith. Smith is currently a professor at the University of Paris 7 but he is a native of Northern California – like myself and, furthermore, he is of my generation, more or less – and thus he is someone whose occasional reflections on his youth in the green-hilled, hippie-infested comarcas of The City [San Francisco] have always had exceptional resonances for me. Anyway, his translation is strikingly good poetry, in itself, and, I presume, faithful to the original, given his scholarly abilities.

Under that primordial
shining and lucid sky,
where the two-legged, having
a mortal body and hollow bones,
knowing war and battle,
acquainted with strife and discord,
having a vulnerable brain
and a trembling soul,
must be fruitful —
with the cool windy western sky,
with the good generous eastern sky,
with the insatiable thirsty southern sky,
with the impetuous whirling northern sky,
with the shivering breadth of the sea,
with the heaving depth of the sea,
with the swelling abyss of the sea,
with the twirling axis of the sea,
with the unbounded reach of the sea,
with the revered aiy [nature spirits] who lie beyond,
with the radiant aiy [nature spirits] who guard,
with abundant yellow nectar,
with generous white nectar,
encircling us in the manifold of stars,
in the herds of countless stars,
in the traces of rare stars,
with the full moon accompanying it,
with the bright sun leading it,
with purifying roars of thunder,
with the smite of bolts of lightning,
with moistening cloud-bursts of rain,
with sultry hot breath,
with the drying out and again the replenishing of waters,
with the falling down and again the growing up of woods,
with inexhaustible generous gifts,
with origins from gently sloping mountains,
with gardens from earthen mountains,
with a hot and giving summer,
with the turning axis of the center,
with four converging sides,
with such high firmament,
what you tread on, will not give way,

what you rattle, will not lurch,
with such an unfathomable breadth,
what you press, will not bend,
eight-chambered, eight-sided,
with six circles,
with disquiet and worry,
in luxurious attire and ornament,
serenely peaceful,
always-existing Mother Earth,
shining like a silver buckle
on a horned hat with a feather.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Take the chain off your brain

What I'm listening to right now.

Pointer Sisters, "You Gotta Believe." The remarkable video is by Nina Paley, who has been blogged here before.

Lyrics.

[Intro]
Doodle wop a-rat-a-tat boom
I'll make the sound of a jet plane zoom
Doodle wop a-rat-a-tat boom
I'll make the sound of a fire

[Hook]
You got to believe in somethin'
Why not believe in me?
You got to believe in somethin'
Why not believe in me?

[Verse One]
What have I, I done to you
To make you mean
And treat me the way you do?
Go on and wave your flag, brother
Start your revolution
I'm willin' to let you do your thing
Tell me why are you plannin' a compromise?

[Hook]

Take the chain off your brain
Take the chain off your brain
Stop, take a look at yourself
Stop ridiculin' everybody else

[Hook x2]

[daily log: walking, 7.5km]

Caveat: vox veneranda sacris

De Luscinia

Quae te dextra mihi rapuit, luscinia, ruscis,
illa meae fuerat invida laetitiae.
Tu mea dulcisonis implesti pectora musis,
atque animum moestum carmine mellifluo.
Qua propter veniant volucrum simul undique coetus
carmine te mecum plangere Pierio.
Spreta colore tamen fueras non spreta canendo.
Lata sub angusto gutture vox sonuit,
dulce melos iterans vario modulamine Musae,
atque creatorem semper in ore canens.
Noctibus in furvis nusquam cessavit ab odis,
vox veneranda sacris, o decus atque decor.
Quid mirum, cherubim, seraphim si voce tonantem
perpetua laudent, dum tua sic potuit?

– Alcuin (Anglo-Saxon poet, theologian and Carolingian administrator, 735-804)

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: the testaments they told

What I'm listening to right now.

The Chainsmokers (with Coldplay), "Something Just Like This." The video is "unofficial," but cute and sappy. This was a song chosen by one of my middle-school CC classes recently. I'm letting them choose their own songs completely, now. It's going pretty well, actually.

Lyrics

I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
Achilles and his gold
Hercules and his gifts
Spiderman's control
And Batman with his fists
And clearly I don't see myself upon that list

But she said, "Where d'you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can kiss.
I want something just like this."

Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo

Oh, I want something just like this
I want something just like this

I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
The testaments they told
The moon and its eclipse
And Superman unrolls
A suit before he lifts
But I'm not the kind of person that it fits

She said, "Where d'you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can miss.
I want something just like this.
I want something just like this."

Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo

"Where d'you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can kiss.
I want something just like this."

Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: with tablespoons of blue lentils

Apocalypse

Of all sixty of us I am the only one who went
to the four corners though I don't say it
out of pride but more like a type of regret,
and I did it because there was no one I truly believed
in though once when I climbed the hill in Skye
and arrived at the rough tables I saw the only other
elder who was a vegetarian–in Scotland–
and visited Orwell and rode a small motorcycle
to get from place to place; and I immediately
stopped eating fish and meat and lived on soups;
and we wrote each other in the middle and late fifties
though one day I got a letter from his daughter
that he had died in an accident; he was
I'm sure of it, an angel who flew in midair
with one eternal gospel to proclaim
to those inhabiting the earth and every nation;
and now that I go through my papers every day
I search and search for his letters but to my shame
I have even forgotten his name,  that messenger
who came to me with tablespoons of blue lentils.
– Gerald Stern (American poet, b 1925)

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: Cthulupalooza

The internet wins the day. It turns out that H.P. Lovecraft's apocalyptically-themed poem "Nemesis" is a perfect metrical fit for Billy Joel's "Piano Man."

And then someone made it happen.

What I'm listening to right now.

Julian Velard, "Nemesis" – lyrics by H.P. Lovecraft, melody by Billy Joel. 

Lyrics – "Nemesis."

      Thro’ the ghoul-guarded gateways of slumber,
          Past the wan-moon’d abysses of night,
     I have liv’d o’er my lives without number,
          I have sounded all things with my sight;
And I struggle and shriek ere the daybreak, being driven to madness with fright.

     I have whirl’d with the earth at the dawning,
          When the sky was a vaporous flame;
     I have seen the dark universe yawning,
          Where the black planets roll without aim;
Where they roll in their horror unheeded, without knowledge or lustre or name.

     I had drifted o’er seas without ending,
          Under sinister grey-clouded skies
     That the many-fork’d lightning is rending,
          That resound with hysterical cries;
With the moans of invisible daemons that out of the green waters rise.

     I have plung’d like a deer thro’ the arches
          Of the hoary primordial grove,
     Where the oaks feel the presence that marches
          And stalks on where no spirit dares rove;
And I flee from a thing that surrounds me, and leers thro’ dead branches above.

     I have stumbled by cave-ridden mountains
          That rise barren and bleak from the plain,
     I have drunk of the fog-foetid fountains
          That ooze down to the marsh and the main;
And in hot cursed tarns I have seen things I care not to gaze on again.

     I have scann’d the vast ivy-clad palace,
          I have trod its untenanted hall,
     Where the moon writhing up from the valleys
          Shews the tapestried things on the wall;
Strange figures discordantly woven, which I cannot endure to recall.

     I have peer’d from the casement in wonder
          At the mouldering meadows around,
     At the many-roof’d village laid under
          The curse of a grave-girdled ground;
And from rows of white urn-carven marble I listen intently for sound.

     I have haunted the tombs of the ages,
          I have flown on the pinions of fear
     Where the smoke-belching Erebus rages,
          Where the jokulls loom snow-clad and drear:
And in realms where the sun of the desert consumes what it never can cheer.

     I was old when the Pharaohs first mounted
          The jewel-deck’d throne by the Nile;
     I was old in those epochs uncounted
          When I, and I only, was vile;
And Man, yet untainted and happy, dwelt in bliss on the far Arctic isle.

     Oh, great was the sin of my spirit,
          And great is the reach of its doom;
     Not the pity of Heaven can cheer it,
          Nor can respite be found in the tomb:
Down the infinite aeons come beating the wings of unmerciful gloom.

     Thro’ the ghoul-guarded gateways of slumber,
          Past the wan-moon’d abysses of night,
     I have liv’d o’er my lives without number,
          I have sounded all things with my sight;
And I struggle and shriek ere the daybreak, being driven to madness with fright.

Here is another version – nicer implementation (more true to the darker spirit of Lovecraft), but incomplete.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: undiagrammable sentiments

Yesterday I went to an actual, non-cancer-hospital dentist. That's the first time I've gone to a non-cancer-hospital dentist since I had cancer. It thus marks a milestone.

Observation: I prefer cancer hospitals to dentists.

What I'm listening to right now.

They Might Be Giants, "I Love You for Psychological Reasons."

Lyrics.

lately I've taken to vacantly making repetitive movements mistakenly seen as improvements
nearing perfection but wisely electing to shun my reflection preferring instead shoe inspection
cheese and chalk do not talk but their eyes synchronize with a secret rhythm
which is a way one could say that I love you for psychological reasons

mumbling failure in jail my extremities flail and I wail though my arms and my legs to the chair are nailed
under the table unwilling unable the torture's medieval the dream is a fable with feeble wings
why does the mouse share the house with the louse they won't say but they feel their feelings
doesn't subtract from the fact that I love you for psychological reasons
reasons I can't really go into now
reasons we should probably not get into right now

I'm ashamed to admit I'm afraid of assuming the blame for my lame abnegation of braveness and fame
brain in a jar in a car in reverse I'm rehearsing the way I'll replay how to say how to be where you are
flammable undiagrammable sentiments pass between animal beings
hard to explain but it's plain that I love you for psychological reasons

why does the mouse share the house with the louse they won't say but they feel their feelings
doesn't subtract from the fact that I love you for psychological reasons
reasons I can't really go into now
reasons we should probably not get into right now

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: Call in the submarine

Last week's bitter cold and Saturday's snow are transformed, by a hazy weekend, into one-degree rain. Typical Korean weather, I suppose: precipitation from the south, and so it's generally a warming trend.

I got not much. Feeling exhausted from last week, but this week has stumbled up upon my doorstep, demanding attention. So …

What I'm listening to right now.

Gorillaz, "On Melancholy Hill." Like so many great songs, I suspect this one was written on heroin. Such is life.

Lyrics

Up on melancholy hill
There's a plastic tree
Are you here with me?
Just looking out on the day
Of another dream

Well you can't get what you want
But you can get me
So let's stand and see, love
Cause you are my medicine
When you're close to me
When you're close to me

So call in the submarine
Round the world we'll go
Does anybody know, love
If we're looking out on the day
Of another dream

If you can't get what you want
Then come with me

Up on melancholy hill
Sits a manatee, love
Just looking out for the day
When you're close to me
When you're close to me

When you're close to me

[daily log: walking, 7km]

 

Caveat: Baste ya de rigores

Esta tarde, mi bien, cuando te hablaba,
como en tu rostro y en tus acciones vía
que con palabras no te persuadía,
que el corazón me vieses deseaba.

Y Amor, que mis intentos ayudaba,
venció lo que imposible parecía,
pues entre el llanto que el dolor vertía,
el corazón deshecho destilaba.

Baste ya de rigores, mi bien, baste,
no te atormenten más celos tiranos,
ni el vil recelo tu quietud contraste

con sombras necias, con indicios vanos,
pues ya en líquido humor viste y tocaste
mi corazón deshecho entre tus manos.

– Sor Juana Inés de la Cruz (Spanish-Mexican poet, 1651-1695)

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: It’s just that I was looking for a world / To walk into empty-handed

The Small Self And The Liberal Sky

Perhaps you didn't realize
Anything can happen under a sky like this

Never give in to surprise:

Not for mountains
Who turn under sheets and breathe in
Each other's green scent;

Not for the lights where nobody lives;

Not for the blood-colored mushrooms
That rise up one after one like little presidents;

Not for the small self, afraid
It has misunderstood the question.

Oh, it's prepared to answer anyway,
It has its array of modest affirmations
Like anyone. Just that-

So many years and something in the leaves
Does not fall.

I find young starlings in the lake's ice,
Their wings spread like death-flowers pressed in a book;

Find moths spawned in the woodshed
Like a winter's supply of blossoms.

It's just that I was looking for a world
To walk into empty-handed.

That's when I found you, female, shamelessly
Sailing toward me in your folded paper boat.

Don't deny it, please.
At night the self feels smaller
And water is scarce in parts of the mind.

The small self is obliged, therefore,
To take back everything
Anyone has ever said.

No one is allowed to speak now
But you

– James Galvin (American poet, b 1951)

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: oh my God, an ill reindeer

What I'm listening to right now.

Run-DMC, "Christmas in Hollis." From 1987. Wow.

Lyrics.

It was December 24th on Hollis Ave in the dark
When I seen a man chilling with his dog in the park
I approached very slowly with my heart full of fear
Looked at his dog, oh my God, an ill reindeer
But then I was illin because the man had a beard
And a bag full of goodies, 12 o'clock had neared
So I turned my head a second and the man had gone
But he left his driver's wallet smack dead on the lawn
I picked the wallet up then I took a pause
Took out the license and it cold said "Santa Claus"
A million dollars in it, cold hundreds of G's
Enough to buy a boat and matching car with ease
But I'd never steal from Santa, cause that ain't right
So I'm going home to mail it back to him that night
But when I got home I bugged, cause under the tree
Was a letter from Santa and all the dough was for me

D.M.C.:

It's Christmas time in Hollis Queens
Mom's cooking chicken and collard greens
Rice and stuffing, macaroni and cheese
And Santa put gifts under Christmas trees
Decorate the house with lights at night
Snow's on the ground, snow white so bright
In the fireplace is the yule log
Beneath the mistle toe as we drink egg nog
The rhymes you hear are the rhymes of Darryl's
But each and every year we bust Chrsitmas carols
(Christmas melodies)

Run-D.M.C.:

Rhymes so loud and proud you hear it
It's Christmas time and we got the spirit
Jack Frost chillin, the orchas out?
And that's what Christmas is all about
The time is now, the place is here
And the whole wide world is filled with cheer

D.M.C.:

My name's D.M.C. with the mic in my hand
And I'm chilling and coolin just like a snowman
So open your eyes, lend us an ear
We want to say

Run-D.M.C.:

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

[daily log: walking, 1km]

Caveat: Ovid, you can go home now

I guess the ancient Roman poet, Ovid (Publius Ovidius Naso, 43BC-17AD), was exiled from his hometown of Rome at some point. Apparently the city council in the city of Rome recently passed a motion revoking his exile. I'm sure his ghost is super happy to hear this.

Est deus in nobis; agitante calescimus illo:
impetus hic sacrae semina mentis habet.
from Fasti, VI.

There is a god within us.
It is when he stirs us that our bosom warms ; it is
his impulse that sows the seeds of inspiration.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Actually, your behavior is pretty weird

I had my middle school 7th grade cohort, HS1-T, write "Letters to Santa." But the idea was to create coherent, reasoned essays. They are my most talented class, linguistically and intellectually, if not, erm, motivationally.

I think in this case, however, they were very creative. One girl, Yeoeun, wrote a quite humorous letter. Here it is, unedited or modified.

Letter to santa.

Hello dear my Santa. Now I am writing letter to you! Wow very crazy. Very weird because I think you are not real and you are crinimal. If you are read this letter you will not give me the present. I am sorry . HAHA.

Actually, your behavior is pretty weird. You don’t know the people who believe Santa. However you trespass in to people’s houses. There are many criminal events similar like you. The crinimal inspire about your behavior and they use their crimine method. It is seriously bad event. Please stop being weird trespassing. It is peace for the world.

If you are a real, I want to go concert with you ! On Christmas, there are a many concert. There are ‘Golen Disc Award’, “Seoul Music Award’, and SBS, MBC, KBS’s ‘Song Festival”. I am the fan. I like the boy group ‘ Seventeen’. I try to get ticketing but I failed. I have very bad slow hand. So I want to see them. I love them and I respect them.

Third, I want to be a lotto winner! There are many people who win the lotto. But I am not win the lotto. So I want to be them ! I want always getting many money. If I have many money, I can burn the money. Overuse is always happy. Buy the clothes, cars, airplanes, buildings and do it all. Also I can get the concert tickets! I really want this things come true.

I know this is not a real. But many people believe you because of comfort.But I want you are a real. Your behavior is little bit crazy but maybe have a good heart. Merry Christmas !!!

[daily log: walking, 1.5km]

Caveat: I sit in my chair

Sorrow

Sorrow like a ceaseless rain
Beats upon my heart.
People twist and scream in pain,—
Dawn will find them still again;
This has neither wax nor wane,
Neither stop nor start.

People dress and go to town;
I sit in my chair.
All my thoughts are slow and brown:
Standing up or sitting down
Little matters, or what gown
Or what shoes I wear.

– Edna St. Vincent Millay (American poet, 1892-1950)

[daily log: walking, 8.5km]

Caveat: I know I’ll be alive

Normally, I try not to post the same type of blog post two days in a row. And yesterday, I did one of my "what I'm listening to right now" posts, which is for when I'm lacking anything more interesting to say and happen to notice I'm listening to something worth posting. 

Well, but I had a pretty braindead weekend. And I've got to go to work and I've got nothing to say. And I happen to be listening to this song I like. So apologies for the unimaginative repetition of post style.

What I'm listening to right now.

Cake, "I Will Survive." This is a cover of the song originally written by Perren and Fekaris, and made famous in the disco hit by Gloria Gaynor in the 1970s. To be honest, I like this version better – I probably like the Gen X cynicism of its tone.

Lyrics.

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.
And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: 덜

What I’m listening to right now.

EXID, “덜덜덜.”
가사
알아먹게 Talk 해 다리 떨지 말고
왜 아무 말이나 해 그건 어디 말이니
(어버버)
Uh 어버버버버버(어버버)
떨리는 동공 더더더덜
머리 굴리는 소리 안 나게 좀 해봐
다 티가 나 기가 차 뭐가 그리 찔리나
지금 웃음이 나와? 아 짜증나게
내가 뭘 했다고 네 머리 다리 팔이 떨려 덜덜덜
Yeah 도둑마냥 제 발 저렸지 막
쥐 잡듯이 잡아주지 난
What you what you
Wanna do right now
How stupid little dumb
Dumb stop now
거짓말 다 네가 속인거래
한번 하면 또 한대
버릇돼서 결국 끝난대
옆에선 다 내가 미친 거래
너만 속아주고 다 주고 다 주고
하지마 자꾸만
나를 더 미치게 만들지마
그렇게 깊게 가지마
더이상 밀어내기 싫다면
Why don’t you ma baby
Why don’t you ma baby
Why don’t you ma baby
이게 진짜 마지막이야 말해봐
미안하다면서
뭐가 미안한데?
미안하다매 다 네 탓이었다매 똑같네
그냥 그동안 네가 한 모든 사과
기분 참 뭐 같네
그럼 난 뭐가 돼 아 참내
이제 난 힘들어 그만할래
내가 어쩌길 바래
나한테 정말 이럼 안돼
앞에선 내가 못되게 해도
결국 속아주고 다 주고 다 주고
하지마 자꾸만 나를
더 미치게 만들지마
그렇게 깊게 가지마
더이상 밀어내기 싫다면
Why don’t you ma baby
Your Lips (덜덜덜덜)
Your Eyes (덜덜덜덜)
네 머리 허리 다리 모두 다
Your Lips (덜덜덜덜)
Your Eyes (덜덜덜덜)
네 머리 허리 다리 모두 다
하지마 자꾸만 나를
더 미치게 만들지마
그렇게 깊게 가지마
더이상 밀어내기 싫다면
Why don’t you ma baby
[daily log: walking, 1km]

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