Caveat: Tuna Melt

I keep trying to think of "soft, bland" foods that can add variety to my unbearably unpleasant diet.

Yesterday I decided to try something: I made some squishy tuna salad (mostly tuna and mayo, but added some very finely chopped tomato and diced raisins – can you imagine?) and slathered it on soft sandwich bread, and added a slice of Korean pseudocheese and microwaved it. It seemed vaguely proteinicious but most importantly, it was the right combination of soft and coherent to make it eatable.

I'm trying to force myself to eat more "normal" foods. I bought a croissant at one of the wish-they-were-french bakeries that abound here and microwaved it slightly, making it kind of chewy and softer. It worked okay, though I had to "wash it down." That's my strategy with a lot of foods – I can chew things but then I can't swallow them effectively, so I wash it down with water or juice or soda. It works.

Last night I went around the Lake after work. I'm trying to start the jogging habit again, as I had been doing last year before my health started feeling like crap, which in retrospect was because of cancer. Just as I started my jog, the lights went out at the park – they always do at around 11 pm. I love jogging in the dark in the park – not the jogging part, but rather the in-the-dark part. I hate jogging, always have… and what is this "runner's high" people talk about, and why have I NEVER experienced it? But I do like being out in nature at night – even when it's cold.

A picture of the Ilsan skyline reflected in the Lake (which has no name – it's just 일산 호수 [Ilsan's lake]).