Caveat: 17776

I ran across a very weird bit of avant-garde science fiction that has been created on a sports news website (SBNation), of all places. This seems unexpected. Anyway, it's a very strange thing – it's not a straightforward sci-fi story, but rather a kind of multimedia "text" in the postmodern sense. Nevertheless, it has a narrative, and the genre is definitely sci-fi.

If you don't like unexpected animations and fiddling with your mouse to make things happen, I don't recommend it, but if you don't mind those things, give it a try: link.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Random Poem #46

(Poem #347 on new numbering scheme)

There's going down. There's going up. Which way
you choose to go depends on your desire.
Desire can lead, but those descents can stray:
long corridors with many doors require
decisions once again. It's better, then,
to walk the upward path. The clouds can serve
as steppingstones, and rainbows tell you when
to turn, and when to jump, and even swerve.
Well, all of this might seem fantastic news,
but there's a problem still. You don't yet know
where you might need to stop, and catch the views -
that mountain for example, with glaring snow:
it needs attention from the angels who
you hope might tell you plainly what is true.

– structurally, it’s a sonnet (of some kind – Elizabethan?), but I don’t think it’s very sonnet-like, thematically, and there’s too much enjambment.

Caveat: 발이 넓다

I learned this idiom from my coworker yesterday.

발이 넓다
bal.i neolp.da
foot-SUBJ wide
[Someone/he/she/you] has a wide foot.

The online daum dictionary pointed me to this page which said the meaning was “아는 사람이 많다” – “knows a lot of people.” In my conversation with my coworker, the meaning was tied in with the idea of a broad social network. She was trying to explain that another coworker was good at networking – not in any modern high-tech sense but just that she had a really wide field of acquaintances.

I guess in many ways I’m the opposite. I’m really bad at maintaining my social network. The field ends up pretty narrow.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Intentionally Boring Teacher

I've really been struggling with a certain class, known as HS1-T. It's making me feel like I'm a bad teacher.

The reconfigured cohorts of the new term which started with July has joined together a group of kids that seems to have led to some bad chemistry. The changes are subtle, and really it boils down to me feeling disappointed with the emerging lack of motivation of otherwise talented students. I realize I don't see the whole picture – these kids have their lives, and things going on, and who knows why a given kid or group of kids decide that working hard at learning English is not a thing they want to focus on anymore.

Nevertheless, I wonder what I could or should be doing differently. I have my insecurities, too. So I spend more time dwelling on this problem than I should, and without any clear resolution.

Last night, I faced the five students – arguably among them are several of the most talented students at Karma in absolute terms. None of them had done homework. I pushed down my anger and tried to shrug it off, saying only that they were harming themselves. Being the "angry" teacher doesn't achieve anything – I tried that last week to horrendous effect. Anyway, I refuse to become the constantly haranguing, nagging creature some of my colleagues devolve into. But being the happy-go-lucky "fun" teacher hasn't been working either. I'm at a loss.

Last night I tried to be "boring teacher" – mostly due to lack of ideas, but I suppose I saw it as a kind of punishment I was imposing on them. It was boring and depressing.

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Random Poem #44

(Poem #345 on new numbering scheme)

When anger surges into that small spot
below my chin, I stop to think that that's
the locus, coincidentally where
a cancer grew in my throat, so I ask,
"Is that what happens when I swallow it?"

Caveat: NATO Chinese Fighter Jets

My selection of ideas for blog posts remains slim. 

Here is a bit of bizarre geopolitical trivia: Which NATO air force has mostly Chinese Aircraft? Albania.

Geopolitical winds can shift – sometimes in surprising ways.

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: Random Poem #43

(Poem #344 on new numbering scheme)

Perhaps the trees were happy with the move.
The dirt was nice; the buildings gave them shade.
At first, the rain was beautiful, it seemed.
But winds appeared, and blew the young trees down.

Caveat: Moonshine

I have been wondering, since the election of Moon Jae-in in May, if the new president would attempt to resurrect the "Sunshine Policy" toward North Korea. Given the changed political context, both with a less sympathetic international regime (i.e. populism and resurgent nationalism in various countries) and with the North's nuclear and ICBM efforts, I don't quite see how this would work.

His recent speech given while in Germany is short on details (of course), but it does seem to outline a return to his party's roots as established by Kim Dae-jung and Roh Moo-hyun from 1998-2008. The one major policy aspect I most question is his focus on reunification. I should think that emphasizing reunification – especially on the German model – would be more likely to annoy the North than encourage it. It's not like the German reunification played out as if between equals. But I suppose Moon was sincerely trying to adapt his message to his audience, in this case, and reflecting that post-Soviet 1990s moment that was undoubtedly formative for him, personally.

[daily log: walking, 11km]

Caveat: Random Poem #42

(Poem #343 on new numbering scheme)

The raindrops tried to take my window's screen...
a beachhead might be made, for further floods;
the other raindrops offered their applause
but gave them no material support.

Caveat: out of olde feldes

The lyf so short, the craft so long to lerne,
Thassay so hard, so sharp the conquering,
The dredful Ioy, that alwey slit so yerne,
Al this mene I by love, that my feling
Astonyeth with his wonderful worching
So sore y-wis, that whan I on him thinke,
Nat wot I wel wher that I wake or winke.

For al be that I knowe nat love in dede,
Ne wot how that he quyteth folk hir hyre,
Yet happeth me ful ofte in bokes rede
Of his miracles, and his cruel yre;
Ther rede I wel he wol be lord and syre,
I dar not seyn, his strokes been so sore,
But God save swich a lord! I can no more.

Of usage, what for luste what for lore,
On bokes rede I ofte, as I yow tolde.
But wherfor that I speke al this? not yore
Agon, hit happed me for to beholde
Upon a boke, was write with lettres olde;
And ther-upon, a certeyn thing to lerne,
The longe day ful faste I radde and yerne.

For out of olde feldes, as men seith,
Cometh al this newe corn fro yeer to yere;
And out of olde bokes, in good feith,
Cometh al this newe science that men lere.
But now to purpos as of this matere —
To rede forth hit gan me so delyte,
That al the day me thoughte but a lyte.

– first stanzas to long poem Parlement of Foules, by Geoffrey Chaucer (English poet, c 1343-1400)

[daily log: walking, 1km]

Caveat: triumph seasoned with agony

Of the Phoenix

Only the priest of the temple knows when it was born.
He has the date in a book, so he can be ready,
when its time has come, to build the fire on the altar:

cinnamon, cloves, nutmeg, twigs of balm, virgin sulphur.
It will be heaped up, unlit, when the bird blunders in,
faffing between the pillars like a panicked sparrow,

but the size of an eagle, its colours now tarnished
by five hundred years of sandstorms. Yet it remembers
at last what to do, and climbs on to its nest of spice,

lifting its neck and fanning with its wings till the sparks
wake in the dull feathers and catch in their own tinder.
Then it is sitting on flame, and the smell fills the air,

incense, banquet and bonfire in one. Its trumpetings
are triumph seasoned with agony. When they die down
there is nothing left but a puffy cushion of ash.

Next day the priest sifts through the coolness with his fingers
and finds a maggot no bigger than a nail paring,
which, by the next, has formed into a body and wings
.
And by the third morning it is a whole bird, preening
the last ash from its scarlet wings and indigo back.
It sputters once more round the tall spaces, and flies out.

There is only one in the world. If you should see it,
a dragonfly speck overhead as you cross the sand,
it is a sign of good luck. Your journey will prosper.

– Matthew Francis (British poet, b. 1956)

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Random Poem #39

(Poem #340 on new numbering scheme)

It breaks my heart to have students so smart
begin to show such weak but obstinate
resistance: they've decided not to work
and lost their interest in learning things.
Perhaps instead I failed to reach their minds.

Caveat: Hot. Tired.

With the start of July, we have a new class schedule, mostly new books, new groupings of students. It's a lot of work, always, to find the new routine, and this time it seems tougher than usual, because I have a lot of back-to-back classes, especially on Monday-Wednesday-Friday. I'm feeling really exhausted. I guess the high heat and humidity of summer isn't helping – the supposed monsoon that started last weekend was a kind of false start, apparently, as it has been hazy-sunny and just plain sweltering the last few days. I hope the rain in earnest comes soon.

I don't have anything stockpiled for posting on this blog – I let my list of ideas dwindle down to nothing. I will have to work on that, but I just haven't been motivated. Therefore I present this more banal than usual post. 

[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: Not so self-centered

Curt found Jae-il wandering around the halls at Karma during class time. He demanded, "Why aren't you in class? Who is your teacher?"

Jae-il, somewhat surprised, but with his typical aplomb, said, "You're my teacher. You weren't there. So I came out."

In fact, it turned out that Curt had been so busy with his duties related to being the hagwon director that he'd forgotten that he was scheduled to be teaching the class.


Unrelatedly… you know why I love donuts? They’re not self-centered.

[daily log: walking: 7km]

Caveat: 4 Years Cancer Free

Today is the fourth anniversary of my cancer surgery and second (third? fourth?) lease on life.

Coincidentally, my CT-scan and inspection checkup was scheduled for this morning, so that was appropriate. The diagnosis came back clear – Dr Cho found nothing on the fancy 3D Xrays they make. I hate the way the contrast medium makes me feel – it's like a kind of burning up from the inside, like everything is about to fly apart. But I lie still and bear with it, while they run the machine. It doesn't help that I have to fast the night before. 

So here I am.

Happy Amdependence Day ("am" [암] is Korean for cancer, and today is July 4th – US Independence Day).

[daily log: walking, 11.5km]

Caveat: Random Poem #36

(Poem #337 on new numbering scheme)

Arranging words like little particles
of light that bound through space like hunted prey
that hope to flee those ravenous weird beasts
imagined, I decide to take a break.

Caveat: 계집의 올굴은 눈의 안경

I learned this aphorism from my aphorism book.

계집의 올굴은 눈의 안경
gye.jip.ui ol.gul.eun nun.ui an.gyeong
woman-GEN face-OBJ eye-GEN glasses
[Like] a woman’s face [through] eyeglasses.

This means “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” The word 계집 [gyejip] was unfamiliar to me – it apparently means woman but specifically “woman” as an object of desire. Perhaps it could better be translated by a more slang-like term like “chick” or “babe.” My dictionary had “the fair sex” which actually seems about right, though of course it seems a bit archaic – but then again, I suspect the Korean is a bit archaic, too, given it appears in an aphorism. The phrase has no verb, but it has the clitic topic marker, which rather implies a verb.
[daily log: walking, 7km]

Caveat: The museum was closed

Yesterday I went to Seoul to see my friend Peter. We had some lunch, and then ended up deciding to try to go to a "Shamanism Museum" that Peter had told me about before, and which interests me. It wasn't that far – it would have been 3 stops on the subway, but we decided to walk, which was 2-3 km. We skirted the southwestern edge of Bukhansan, the big mountain and park area that rises north of central Seoul, paralleling the line 3 subway, which is the one that comes out to Ilsan, too. It's pretty familiar territory.

We found the museum without difficulty, but it was closed. It seems to keep limited hours, a few weekday mornings only. So. 

We talked a lot, anyway, and it was a nice enough walk, as the clouds loomed and the monsoon was about to start. The rain started last night.

Here is a picture of the museum – it's in a very posh neighborhood of rather new high rise apartments.

picture

Here is a nice-looking gazebo amid some trees and greenery nearby. It's nothing old, but it's built in an old style and is quite pleasant.

picture

Maybe I'll try to go back, sometime, when it's open. Then I'd have more to write about.

[daily log: walking, 1.5km]  

Caveat: Random Poem #34

(Poem #335 on new numbering scheme)

The people were distributing their souls
across the city, traveling by train
through tunnels and among the buildings strewn
around the elevated tracks like toys.

[daily log: walking, 9km]

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