Caveat: More ghost stories of Karma

Here are some ghost stories written by my middle-school students – by my uncontrite TEPS-M cohort, to be exact. Really their stories are pretty good – I suspect in some cases they may be borrowing from plots of movies or TV shows or books that are unfamiliar to me in some cases, but even still they did a good job translating. I made quite a few grammatical corrections and even a few stylistic adjustments to their writing, but the ideas and descriptions are fundamentally theirs.


I am a taxi driver. One day, I was driving my taxi. It was a typical day. But that night, I was driving along a street where there were no people. Suddenly, a girl knocked on the taxi's window. She said, "Are you free? May I get in?" I said, "Sure," so she got in. She told me, "I need to get home fast!" So I drove very fast and girl told me the way to go. I arrived at her house, and it was a very old and big house. She said to me, "I'll give you the money, just wait a moment." She went into the house. I waited and waited, for a long time. After half an hour, I was feeling very angry. I was frustrated from waiting for her. I went up to the house and knocked three times on the door. A man opened the door and greeted me. He asked me, "What do you want?" I said, "Your daughter rode in my taxi and went into this house, but she didn't pay." The man was very surprised, and yelled, "What are you talking about? I was embarrassed. He showed me a photo and said, "Is that the girl you gave a ride to?" I answered, "Yes." The man said, "Oh, no. Today is the anniversary of her death. Oh, I miss her so much." He cried. I was very scared. I ran to my car and drove very fast to my house.


This is a true story about a haunted house. Last summer vacation, when I was 14 years old, I and another friend went to a haunted house. Our town is pretty old, so there are a lot of old, haunted houses around. Among them, we chose the building that was the biggest. It has 5 floors including a basement. We thought that it was an old clothing company, because there were so many old clothes and mannequins. The mannequins were especially scary, because they were taller than we were. On the first floor, there was nothing interesting – just a few mannequins and a counter. The second floor seemed to have been a storage area, and the third floor, too. The problem happened on the last floor, the fourth. It was a workroom, because there were some sewing machines and mannequins. This floor had more room than the other floors. We started by checking from room to room, and we checked all the way to the last room, then we returned. My two friends didn't notice it, but I did. All the mannequins' necks had rotated 180 degrees. I regretted that I didn't have a video camera. Still, I never wanted to go back to that place after that.


One night, I was at home. I was the only person in the house. It was really dark, so I turned up the lights. As it became bright, I heard a strange sound in my room. I was so scared. I hugged my dog, and I went to my room. When I turned on the light, there, I saw nothing in my room. At that time, I heard the strange sound in the living room. I felt even more scared, so I called my parents. The didn't answer their phone, however. I thought maybe the strange sound was coming from the computer or TV. I turned off the power for those things. Still, I heard that strange sound. Until this day, I don't know what that strange sound was. It's really scary to remember it.


There was a man once who said he wanted to sell a camera which he said could take a ghost's picture. He said he would sell the camera for three thousand dollars to people who can't see ghosts, and only five hundred dollars to people who can see ghosts. Someone came to try to buy the camera and offered five hundred dollars, but he couldn't find the ghosts that the camera showed. Two days later, someone who really could see ghosts came to buy the camera. Unfortunately, the camera had a problem with bad photo quality. So the customer came back to the man who had sold the camera, that man said he would fix it. In the pictures, there were some unclear pictures of ghosts. The camera seller said, "Let's meet tomorrow, and I will give you this camera, all fixed." The camera seller fixed the lens of the camera. It looked like a black point on a ball. He wiped off the lens and gave it to the customer, who was now satisfied with the camera. A few months later, after taking a lot of photos, the camera began to have a problem again. He complained the there was a red stripe. The camera seller took the customer to his home, where he stunned the man and pulled out his eye, which he put in as a new camera lens. You see, actually, the camera lens is the eye of someone who can see ghosts. The camera seller announced, "Here is the latest model of my ghost-seeing camera!"

[daily log: walking, 1km]

Caveat: Aaoooooo

Halloween is always a stressful time in hagwonland. That’s because it tends to be a juncture of two things. First, it is a high-intensity teaching period in the hagwon context relative to the Korean academic calendar. Second, there exists the idea that the hagwon needs to have a Halloween party for the kids, one of the two big festival-like events we have each year.
Which is to say, I have been very busy, and today is d-day. Or h-day. Something like that.


What I’m listening to right now.

Warren Zevon, “Werewolves of London.”
Lyrics.

I saw a werewolf with a Chinese menu in his hand
Walking through the streets of Soho in the rain
He was looking for a place called Lee Ho Fook’s
Gonna get a big dish of beef chow mein

Aaoooooo!
Werewolves of London!
Aaoooooo! (Repeat)

If you hear him howling around your kitchen door
Better not let him in
Little old lady got mutilated late last night
Werewolves of London again

Asoooooo!
Werewolves of London!
Aaoooooo! (Repeat)

He’s the hairy-handed gent who ran amuck in Kent
Lately he’s been overheard in Mayfair
Better stay away from him
He’ll rip your lungs out, Jim
I’d like to meet his tailor

Aaoooooo!
Werewolves of London!
Aaoooooo! (Repeat)

Well, I saw Lon Chaney walking with the Queen
Doing the Werewolves of London
I saw Lon Chaney, Jr. walking with the Queen
Doing the Werewolves of London
I saw a werewolf drinking a pina colada at Trader Vic’s
And his hair was perfect

Aaoooooo!
Werewolves of London!
Aaoooooo! (Repeat)
Draw blood…

[daily log: walking, 6km]
 
 

Caveat: mezquino idioma

Portrait_of_Gustavo_Adolfo_Bécquer,_by_his_brother_Valeriano_(1862)RIMA I

Yo sé un himno gigante y extraño
que anuncia en la noche del alma una aurora,
y estas páginas son de ese himno
cadencias que el aire dilata en las sombras.

Yo quisiera escribirle, del hombre
domando el rebelde, mezquino idioma,
con palabras que fuesen a un tiempo
suspiros y risas, colores y notas.

Pero en vano es luchar, que no hay cifra
capaz de encerrarle; y apenas, ¡oh, hermosa!,
si, teniendo en mis manos las tuyas,
pudiera, al oído, cantártelo a solas.

– Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer (poeta español, 1836-1870).

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: Ladybugs are better than Canada

“Ladybugs are better than Canada.” I said this to my coworker, the other day. It struck me as one of those possibly never-before-uttered phrases.

Context: she had made some paper tokens for an in-class bingo game. One set of tokens had red maple leaves on them (i.e. “Canada”). The other set of tokens had cartoon ladybugs.

She asked me which I thought were better. So I said, simply, “Ladybugs are better than Canada.”


What I’m listening to right now. The Youngsters, “Smile (Sasha remix).” No lyrics.

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Caveat: Tied to the shifting ground

I dreamed I was in some rural place. There were ramshackle, badly-plastered buildings scattered on a steep, gravelly hillside. Little springs of water were leaking out of clay embankments and skipping down the steep, tall grass.

The soil was ruddy. It was somewhat reminiscent of places I have seen in Korea, but also, in the dream, I felt the familiarity of my childhood in Northern California, along some river – the Trinity, the Eel. Thinking about it now, it was like my stepfather's "ranch" high above the South Fork of the Trinity river. I used to spend warm summer afternoons out on the hillside, trying to draw imaginary cities out of the rocky clay. 

Perhaps I was a child, myself. Someone nearby had a stuffed toy rabbit, and within the dream, this was utterly unremarkable. There was a dark, shrouded figure lurking in the doorway of one of the buildings, simply watching me. I didn't feel afraid of this, and it did not seem strange.

People were talking, milling around, but I wasn't being social. I was eating fish soup out of a paper cup. The bits of fish seemed like wax – like those was sculptures of food displayed in front of restaurants in Korea, sometimes.

I dropped my paper cup on the ground, and I was so angry, hungry and desperate that I began digging around on the ground for the little bits of fish and vegetables and eating them with chopsticks. Someone was laughing at me – a relative? a friend?

I ended up eating dirt and rocks. I focused on the ground, and ignored the people around me. It was one of those dreams I sometimes have, where I felt myself becoming an animal. Walking on all fours, loping along the hillside, biting at pebbles and blades of grass.

I slipped away into the forest.


What I'm listening to right now.

CHVRCHES, "Clearest Blue."

Lyrics.

[Verse 1]
Light is all over us
Like it always was
Like it always was
Shaped, by the clearest blue
But it's not enough
It's not enough, not enough

[Chorus]
Just another time I'm caught inside
Every open eye
Holding on tightly to the sides
Never quite learning why
You'll meet me, you'll meet me
You'll meet me halfway

Whenever I feel it coming on
You can be well aware
If ever I try to push away
You can just keep me there
So please say you'll meet me
Meet me halfway

[Verse 2]
Tied, to the shifting ground
Like it always was
Like it always was
You, were the perfect storm
But it's not enough, it's not enough
Not enough, not enough

[Chorus – Variation]
Just another time that I go down
But you are keeping up
Holding to a hope you'll undermine
Never to be reversed

Just another time I'm caught inside
Every open eye
Holding on tightly to the sides
Never quite learning why

Whenever I feel it coming on
You can be well aware
If ever I try to push away
You can just keep me, tell me

[Build Up]
Tell me tell me, you'll meet me
Tell me tell me, you'll keep me
Tell me tell me, you'll meet me
Will you meet me more than halfway up?

[Outro]
Shaped by, clearest blue
Shaped by, clearest blue

Shaped (will you keep it half-a-way)
By, clearest blue (will you keep it half-a-way)
Shaped (will you keep it half-a-way)
By, clearest blue (will you keep it half-a-way)

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: the furrow that is being plowed

I have been reading (re-reading? I may have read it long ago) Henri Bergson's Creative Evolution. Bergson is a somewhat underrated philosopher, in my opinion. I was led to him by Deleuze. I was struck by this quote (I have transcribed, at length – typos are thus my own):

Human intelligence, as we represent it, is not at all what Plato taught in the allegory of the cave. Its function is not to look at passing shadows nor yet to turn itself round and contemplate the glaring sun. It has something else to do. Harnessed, like yoked oxen, to a heavy task, we feel the play of our muscles and joints, the weight of the plow and the resistance of the soil. To act and to know that we are acting, to come into touch with reality and even to live it, but only in the measure in which it concerns the work that is being accomplished and the furrow that is being plowed, such is the function of human intelligence. Yet a beneficent fluid bathes us, whence we draw the very force to labor and to live. From this ocean of life, in which we are immersed, we are continually drawing something, and we feel that our being, or at least the intellect that guides it, has been formed therein by a kind of local concentration. Philosophy can only be an effort to disolve again into the Whole. Intelligence, reabsorbed into its principle, may thus live back again its own genesis. But the enterprise cannot be achieved in one stroke; it is necessarily collective and progressive. It consists in an interchange of impressions which, correcting and adding to each other, will end by expanding the humanity in us and making us even transcend it. [pp. 191-192 in my Dover edition]

To the extent that it is a coherent refutation of Plato's allegory, I like it a lot. To the extent it seems to embrace an almost naive pantheism, I don't, though I understand the impulse.

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: Silly Logic Problems

I had intended to post a something a bit longer today, by way of journaling my emotional roller-coaster this past week. But I had trouble finding gumption on a lazy Sunday, and so I haven't written anything I want to post.

Meanwhile, by way of distraction… I was looking at silly logic problems. I'm not actually that good at solving these. I think I lack patience.

I have been thinking of showing some of these to my students, however. I like the idea of combining English with these types of problems which so many of my students are so good at solving.

[daily log: walking, 1.5km]

Caveat: It’s much easier said than it’s done

Saturday classes are done.

Now I can rest. 

What I'm listening to right now.

Yeasayer, "O.N.E."

Lyrics.

One's not enough
I won't stop till I've given you up
Here, right as I am, it's hard having fun
It's much easier said than it's done

Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to
Control me like you used to

No
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't have you anymore

But I thought you should know
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't take it anymore

The room's still now when I'm lying
'Cause the well of the night has gone dry
When they ask to behave, I paid them no mind
Now I doubt if I'd have been so kind

Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to
Control me like you used to

No
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't have you anymore

But I thought you should know
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't take it anymore

Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to
Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to

Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to
Control me like you used to

Hold me like before
Hold me like you used to
Control me like you used to

No
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't have you anymore

But I thought you should know
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't take it anymore

But I thought you should know

And it feels like being tranquilized
I know the separation kills the soul
But I won't stop falling like raindrops
Because I like it when you lose control

I thought you should know
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't take it anymore

And it feels like being tranquilized
I know the separation kills the soul
But I won't stop falling like raindrops
Because I like it when you lose control

I thought you should know
You don't move me anymore
And I'm glad that you don't
'Cause I can't take it anymore

And it feels like being tranquilized
I know the separation kills the soul
But I won't stop falling like raindrops
Because I like it when you lose control

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: 생일축하합니다

Last night we had 회식 (“business dinner”), after work. It was to celebrate a rather large concentration of October birthdays. Most of the people standing up in this photo are having birthdays this month – exception being the boss on the right of the photo. Korean custom: everyone sings 생일축하합니다 (saengil chukhahamnida) to the American “Happy Birthday” tune, clapping their hands.
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I wish the physical act of eating were less unpleasant for me – it might make it easier for me to enjoy these occasions. Regardless, I wasn’t that unhappy about it – I felt less isolated than usual. After the extremely difficult week I’ve been having, it was actually a bit of a highlight.
[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: The Ghosts of Arcturus

It is a foggy October morning.

I have been having a really hellish week. Really long days of work, in early, out late. A lot of things going wrong. I wrote a long blog post complaining, but decided not to post it.

Last week we made ghost stories in my young Arcturus class.

Here are some ghost stories, crossposted from my work blog.

Andysghost

Cindysghost

Ginasghost

Tomsghost

Elizabethsghost

Bettysghost

Raysghost

[daily log: walking, 4km]

Caveat: The Nixonian Prophecies

December, 1971:

Justin Trudeau is born.

April, 1972:

While visiting with Prime Minister Pierre Trudeau in Ottawa, Richard Nixon says, with respect to the Prime Minister's newly born son, "Tonight we'll dispense with the formalities. I'd like to toast the future prime minister of Canada, to Justin Pierre Trudeau."

October, 2015:

Justin Trudeau is elected Prime Minister of Canada.

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: …and bad days

Two weeks ago I had a good Monday. Yesterday I had a horrible Monday. There are good days and bad days.

I hate when I lose control of a class. I know, objectively, that it doesn’t happen very often. But when it does, I question my ability to be a teacher, I spin into self-doubt and anger. All that. Those obnoxious kids in the TEPS-M반 got the best of me, once again. By far it is one of the worst classes I’ve ever taught, on a very consistent basis.

I hate that that class is the last in the day’s schedule. The consequence is that I brought home my frustration and anger, instead of have some more pleasant class to clear my head first. I haven’t come home that upset in a very long time. I wanted to become the incredible hulk and knock things down.


What I’m listening to right now. Muse, “Map of the Problematique.”

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Caveat: Content Thieves

Well this is interesting. I just discovered that some website is using my RSS feed and aggregating my blog posts. I’m not sure what benefit they are hoping to derive – I suspect the idea is to get eyeballs on their site, to drive up pageviews and thus payout from advertisers or a larger number of marks to sign up for their site. To get eyeballs on their site, they’re using content of other bloggers, without those other bloggers’ permissions.
In fact, I don’t really care that much. I’m going to post this blog post, however, because I like the “meta” idea that this post will appear on that site.
To make this work, I will have to name and link to the site. However, I want to explicitly state to my normal readers the following CAVEAT: follow the link and visit that site at your own risk. 
The name is “BlogsInKorea” but the site domain is studyinkorea.or.kr. You can see my blog post from earlier today here:https://www.studyinkorea.or.kr/cast/910026.
It looks pretty sketchy – it has some features in common with the kinds of websites one finds being run, all too often, by Russians and Nigerians, including many spelling mistakes and a lot of empty links. On the other hand, if I was more fluent in Korean, I’d be tempted to call the phone number listed at the bottom. But that’s a potential linguistic minefield I have no interest in trying to navigate.
In fact, I’m not particularly upset – it might end up just driving more traffic to my blog, where, since I have never had any intention of attempting to monetarize my own content, it will serve no purpose except the general enlightenment of the public at large.
As a point of general interest, however, I have a question for my regular readers: is anyone using RSS from my site? I don’t think so. I may turn it off.
Update: It worked – the loop is closed. Here is this blog post, shown as a screenshot from their website.
Contentthieves

Caveat: 吉祥善事

I learned this four-character Sino-Korean aphorism from my building’s elevator’s advertising TV yesterday.
吉祥善事
길상선사
gil.sang.seon.sa
The online dictionary gives the meaning: “더할 수 없이 기쁘고 경사스러운 일.”
It took me a while to figure out this definition, until I realized 없이 was an adverbialized form of 없다. From that, I guess this definition literally translates to something like “A happy and auspicious day unable-ly to grow worse,” but we have to make the adverbial into relative clause to make natural English: “A happy and auspicious day that cannot grow worse.”
Sounds like that would be a pretty good day. Not that I’ve had many in that category lately, although last week wasn’t really that bad – just very busy and I feel tired.
[daily log: walking, 1 km]

Caveat: Here Come Cowboys

Wow, that was a tiring week – first full schedule after the somewhat lesser schedule of the 내신 period.

I am utterly exhausted. So. More later.

What I'm listening to right now.

Psychedelic Furs, "Here Come Cowboys."

Lyrics.

There are colors flashing
People wearing stars and stuff
There are engines cracking
There's a way to turn it off

It gets so hard at times
To take it serious
It really gets to be a drag
When all we really need is love

Here come cowboys
Here to save us all
Here come cowboys
They're so well inside the law
Here come cowboys
They're no fun at all
Here come cowboys

You've been waiting so long
You've been waiting for today
Don't you put yourself on?
Don't you take yourself away?

It gets so hard at times
To take it serious
It really gets to be a drag
When all we really need is love

Here come cowboys
Here to save us all
Here come cowboys
They're so well inside the law
Here come cowboys
They're no fun at all
Here come cowboys

It gets so hard at times
To take it serious
It really gets to be a drag
When all we really need is love

Here come cowboys
Here to save us all
Here come cowboys
They're so well inside the law
Here come cowboys
They're no fun at all
Here come cowboys

[daily log: walking, 6.5km]

Caveat: Chickentweegret

In Australia, there is a chicken who tweets. As in… she has a computer keyboard in her coop and she sends out messages on twitter.

This is a sign that our civilization is advanced. My tweegret is now waning substantially.

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Caveat: Discovering A Car

Recently, it was "Columbus Day."

My thoughts on this could be summarized by this humorous quote: "Columbus discovering America is like a car thief discovering your car." – This is not an exact quote, but I have seen the concept attributed to comedian Chris Rock, in various incarnations.


Unrelatedly…

What I'm listening to right now.

Camera Obscura, "Lloyd I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken." Who is Lloyd?

Lyrics.

He said "I'll protect you like you are the crown jewels", yeah
Said he's feeling sorrier for me the more I behave badly
I can bet

Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment

Jealousy is more than a word, now I understand
You can't stay a girl while holding a boy's hand

Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment
Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment

I've got my life of complication here to sort out
I'll take myself to an east coast city and walk about

Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment
Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment
Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken
'cuz I can't see further than my own nose at this moment

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: Libertarian Police Department

I was surfing some of the blogs I read, and found this blog post with a rather novel approach to defining capitalism. I'm not sure I find it entirely compelling, but I like the effort to break with philosophical and economic tradition. It takes a rather abstract, game-theoretic approach informed by information theory.

This article, however, led me in turn to this rather humorous bit at the New Yorker, about a "Libertarian Police Department" – which is a kind of oxymoron, of course.

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: Reviviendo Memorias de Haber Sido un Gringo Chilango

Lo que estoy eschando en este momento.

Café Tacvba, “Chilanga Banda.” Esta canción es puro eslang de chilangos, que de cierto modo es mi dialacto “nativo” de castellano – o sea, el dialecto que aprendí primero. Mi apodo en aquella época era “gringo chilango.” Y siempre me ha gustado.

Letra.

Ya chole chango chilango
que chafa chamba te chutas
no checa andar de tacuche
y chale con la charola
Tan choncho como una chinche
mas chueco que la fayuca
con fusca y con cachiporra
te pasa andar de guarura
Mejor yo me hecho una chela
y chance enchufo una chava
chambeando de chafirete
me sobra chupe y pachanga
Si choco saco chipote
la chota no es muy molacha
chiveando a los que machucan
se va en morder su talacha
De noche caigo al congal
no manches dice la changa
al choro de teporocho
enchifla pasa la pacha
Pachuco cholos y chundos
chichinflas y malafachas
aca los chompiras rifan
y bailan tibiri tabara
Mejor yo me hecho una chela
y chance enchufo una chava
chambeando de chafirete
me sobra chupe pachanga
Mi ñero mata la vacha
y canta la cucaracha
su choya vive de chochos
de chemo churro y garnachas
Pachuco cholos y chundos
chichinflas y malafachas
aca los chompiras rifan
y bailan tibiri tabara
Transeando de arriba abajo
hay va la chilanga banda
chin chin si me la recuerdan
carcacha y se les retacha

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: 누은 나무에 열매 안연다

I saw this aphorism in my aphorism book.
누은 나무에 열매 안연다
nu.eun na.mu.e yeol.mae an.yeon.da
fall-PP tree-LOC fruit not-bear-PRES
A fallen tree bears no fruit.
The book suggests “nothing ventured, nothing gained” as an English equivalent. That makes sense.
I haven’t ventured much lately. 
QED.
[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: The Air Was Clear

The day was so clear, I felt inspired to try to take pictures when I went for my little walk on the hill at Jeongbalsan, today.

I think I need a new camera – my phone's camera seemed inadequate. 

The grove of trees behind the cultural center.

Behindculturalcenter

The observation platform at the top of the hill.

A picture I took

A view of Tanhyeon neighborhood.

A picture I took

A view of Bukhansan – the air was very clear.

A picture I took

A view of the Gobong hill with its distinctive radio tower.

A picture I took

A view of the Cancer Center through the trees – I probably have posted pictures looking out from one of the windows visible on the 10th floor of the main hospital building.

A picture I took

Some fall trees.

A picture I took

A trail at the bird park.

A picture I took

The weird streets of wealthy k-burbia, with their cheek-by-jowl  mcmansions. And somebody parked a Hummer on the street.

A picture I took

The weird church whose architecture I prefer to its dogma.

A picture I took

 

All these pictures are within a 10 block circle of where I live. As I was arriving back home, the heavy clouds drew together and it began to rain.

[daily log: walking, 3.5 km]

Caveat: War Sponges

What I'm listening to right now.

Black Sabbath, "War Pigs." Excellent video adaptation by Chip's World

Lyrics.

Generals gathered in their masses,
just like witches at black masses.
Evil minds that plot destruction,
sorcerer of death's construction.
In the fields the bodies burning,
as the war machine keeps turning.
Death and hatred to mankind,
poisoning their brainwashed minds…Oh lord yeah!

Politicians hide themselves away
They only started the war
Why should they go out to fight?
They leave that role to the poor

Time will tell on their power minds
Making war just for fun
Treating people just like pawns in chess
Wait `till their judgement day comes, yeah!

Now in darkness, world stops turning,
ashes where the bodies burning.
No more war pigs have the power,
hand of god has struck the hour.
Day of judgement, god is calling,
on their knees the war pigs crawling.
Begging mercy for their sins,
Satan, laughing, spreads his wings…Oh lord, yeah!

[daily log: walking in the rain, 1.5 km]

Caveat: Ideophones for Hangul Day

Today is “Hangul Day” – a Korean holiday that was recently invented (or rather, “restored” as apparently it existed before, but its current incarnation became a legal holiday last year). I think South Korea was feeling self-conscious about how few holidays they have, relative to other OECD countries, so they’ve been inventing new ones. To celebrate Hangul Day, it seems logical to study Korean.

In that domain, here is something I’ve been working on recently.

I have posted about Korean language phonomimes, phenomimes and psychomimes 3 times before (here, here and here).

I have decided to just put together a consolidated page listing them, which I will update when I feel like, because such a resource for non-Korean speakers does not seem to exist online.

Here it is.

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Caveat: Rainlessness

I suspected we had had a dry summer, compared to the normal Korean monsoon, but no one seemed to comment on it, so I thought it was just subjective yearning on my part for more rain. 

Then on the news this morning, however, I saw a report about drought and crop damage, and I found this article from Korea Herald. So it's official – we are having a drought, after all, and it looks like Seoul has been particularly affected. It's El Niño's fault, apparently.

Yesterday I was at work until 11 pm because of a meeting. I have made a commitment to myself to try to attend all the middle-school staff meetings, which Curt has always excused me from because they are conducted entirely in Korean (unlike the elementry staff meetings, which tend to go back-and-forth). I'm doing this because I was complaining that I never know what's going on with the middle-school kids. I'm not sure attending the meetings in Korean will help that much, but I'm trying to solve my problem instead of just complaining about it. 

They have a lot of meetings. I'm just speculating, here, but maybe that's linked to the middle-school staff dissatisfaction problems, somehow.

I have been feeling sorry for myself in my perennial inability to improve my Korean language skill. Of course, that's another thing I have no right to complain about. Maybe these staff meetings will help – Korean language meetings are quite difficult for me to endure. I end up feeling sympathy for my students when they're confronted with a listening task that is too far above their ability level. 

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: The Burrito Gravity Train

I recently ran across a very entertaining bit of fiction. It's a little bit borgesian, I guess, in that the story's protagonist is an idea rather than a person.

It's about a "chord tunnel" (an ancient concept orginally developed in the 18th century, also called a "gravity train," that pops up sometimes in science fiction) used for delivering burritos from San Francisco to New York City: 

The Alameda-Weehawken Burrito Tunnel.

[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: Teacher, no. Workbook.

Yesterday was one of those days when I am thankful for my job.

As I've told people many times, this job (meaning "TEFL in Korea" – in its various incarnations over the last 8 years) is the first job of the many that I've had where I often feel better about the job at the end of the day than at the beginning. Mondays are hard days – I have six classes, strung in a row with no breaks. Several of these Monday classes are in the once-a-week-and-why-am-I-trying-to-teach-these-kids-English category. 

As I went to work, I was dreading it. I felt unprepared, so I went to work early. The sky was stunningly blue as is often the case in the Fall in Korea – the only season of the year when that kind of weather is common. But I felt depressed and gloomy, after yet another weekend when I felt like I had achieved none of the personal goals I'd set for myself – as minor as they may be, I still couldn't find the motivation to do them. Clean my desk? Not checked off. Go to the big store to get some supplies? Not checked off. Fix some persistent problems on my blog site? Not checked off. See what I mean?

I was gloomy. I was dreading my six classes.

I went to work, and tried to get organized, figure out my lesson plan for each class – I don't write these down, much anymore, but I always do it mentally, and without it, I go into class feeling a bit desperate. I did this, and even was in my first class 10 minutes early. The students were there and we "hung out" which I always feel is better "English Teaching" than what we do in our textbooks, sometimes, since I always try to interact with my students in English, even at the lowest levels.

The kids surprised me later, when, halfway through the class, I was happy with how they were doing and so I offered to "play a game" for the remaining 20 minutes.

"Teacher, no. Workbook." This set the tone for the day. All my classes showed an unexpected interest in actually learning. Even the advanced class, later in the evening, where they took me up on a similar "play a game" offer that comes when everyone's done well on their homework, they ended up trying to teach me to play a game that I hadn't played before – which is probably much more difficult, from a functional English standpoint, than anything they actually have to do for the class curriculum.

Well, anyway. It was a day that felt like I was teaching English. So walking home, I wasn't as depressed or gloomy. 

And that's why I do this job.

[daily log: walking, 7.5km]

Caveat: 畫皮 2

Painted Skin - The Resurrection(Xiao_Wei)
It’s not very often that I will watch a movie all the way through when I don’t understand it. But I caught this movie on TV yesterday that held my attention visually all the way through, despite the fact that it was a Chinese movie with Korean subtitles.
It is called 畫皮 2, known in English, apparently, as Painted Skin: The Resurrection. I found it online by searching for the Korean title which was on the TV, “화피2,” and then searching the Chinese title in the English wikipedia.
Perhaps someday I will try to find it and watch it in a language where I understand it – although it’s also possible that in understanding it better, I would like it less. I found it compelling the way that a surreal but incoherent dream is compelling. It certainly had a lot of violence and weird magic.
[daily log: walking, 6km]

Caveat: no less makings of the sun

The Planet On The Table
Ariel was glad he had written his poems.
They were of a remembered time
Or of something seen that he liked.
Other makings of the sun
Were waste and welter
And the ripe shrub writhed.
His self and the sun were one
And his poems, although makings of his self,
Were no less makings of the sun.
It was not important that they survive.
What mattered was that they should bear
Some lineament or character,
Some affluence, if only half-perceived,
In the poverty of their words,
Of the planet of which they were part.
– Wallace Stevens (American poet, 1879-1955)
[UPDATE 2020-03-31: While doing some routine maintenance on this here blog, I am embarrassed to realize, only now, that I have cited this poem twice on this blog. This is the first appearance. The second was on 2016-09-25. Well, I guess it’s a pretty good poem.]
[daily log: walking, 1 km]

Caveat: Weaponized Migration

Many years ago, I made some posts on this blog (in its earliest, pre-Life-in-Korea incarnation) about the issue of open borders and migration as a human right. I still basically believe this, although it’s not something that I consider particularly urgent, and certainly, living as a de facto immigrant in one of the world’s less immigrant-friendly regions presents some ironies to this.

Recently, in a post on the crookedtimber blog, I ran across what I would consider one of the best counter-arguments to the idea that borders should be thrown open. Actually, it was a comment below the main post that raised the issue (by a commenter named “Merkwürdigliebe” – whoever that might be), but I think it’s possibly the best rebuttal to open borders I have run across.

The idea is that when you have open borders, a government (or a people, in the form of a mass movement) could “weaponize” migration. Many conspiracy-theorists (especially on the right) already believe there is intentionality behind mass migrations of e.g. Mexicans into the US, and, with respect to certain fringe groups (such as the Aztlan revanchist movement) there is actually some validity.

The commenter raised the idea of, say, the Russian government using putative open European borders to flood former East Bloc countries such as the Baltics with direct Russian migration, until those countries were rendered majority Russian and thus captured into the Russian orbit.

In fact, there are plenty of examples from history of successful “weaponized” migration – everything from the barbarian invasions of the Roman Empire to the movement of settlers from the British Isles into North America to the Argentinian leverage of Welsh nationalism to subdue the Patagonian natives, to the entire Zionist project from conception to its current manifestations in the West Bank settlements.

These historical examples themselves constitute the essential counter-rebuttal to the argument, however: all of these historical examples of “weaponized” migration were successful despite active resistance on the part of the people being “migrated against.” Thus, whether or not there are “open borders” seems structurally irrelevant. If a given people or movement or government make a concerted effort at weaponized migration, the presence or absence of border controls seems not to matter a whit. As the borg pointed out, as it effortlessly zoomed across Federation border controls, “resistance is futile.”

Nevertheless, it is a cogent and intelligent argument, and would need to be addressed in the context of a debate in favor of open borders.

[daily log: walking, a little bit]


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Caveat: My Hermitage

I have been undergoing a bit of a depressing realization, lately, about my character and about my life. The fact is that I am quite bad at all social relations that go beyond a certain, superficial level. Really, more accurately this is not a “realization” (because I already have known it), but rather a reinforcement, or a reminder.

I am good within what you might call “well-defined” or “bounded” social interactions, I think. This is why I don’t have problems with teaching, or work in general, or with making a good impression on sociable strangers whom I meet on the street – if I need to. But for the closest, most important social relations, I’m terrible. I am, perhaps, too self-centered. I come by this trait quite legitimately, of course. That does not really excuse it, however. It is a substantial moral failing, in my own opinion.

When it comes to my family, I don’t really stay in touch very well. The same is true with close friends. Some of my friends and family tolerate this poor performance, and so they periodically reach out to me – meeting me on my own terms, so to speak. They read my blog, because that’s how I choose to make myself accessible to them. Many other relatives and friends, however, do not do this. Because of this, I quickly drift out of touch with them.

Last weekend, this shortcoming of mine was hammered home to me in the most shocking, sobering, disconcerting way possible.

As many know, quite a while back I essentially quit the facebook. I maintain my account there, but I almost never log in. In fact, it had been at least 3 or 4 months since I last logged in.

A few days ago, I decided to log in just to check if anyone was trying to get in touch with me but was too stubborn to realize I wasn’t using facebook anymore. There are quite a few people in this category, of course – many of whom are quite close friends or family, or at least were such at some point in the past.

I logged into facebook, and discovered that my stepson, Jeffrey, is now a father. That makes me, um… a grandfather. Stepgrandfather, yes, but… as close as I’m likely to get in this life. Although Jeffrey and I are not close, now, there was time when he was young when we were quite close, and he called me “dad.” I have mostly good memories of those interactions. I have many regrets about my own failures in my role as parent.

Clearly, however, Jeffrey is not one of those people who will reach out to me “on my terms.” That means that it’s up to me to stay in touch. I have been failing to do that. This has led to this huge surprise.

I don’t want to intrude on his privacy. He has his life. I am mostly grateful that he seems to have turned out OK, despite the difficulties of his adolescence, especially with his mom Michelle’s death in 2000. I have tried to help him in various ways, at various times, over the years, but I doubt he sees me as particularly reliable. I expect that he perceives me to be that flaky stepdad that wasn’t there for him or Michelle at those critical moments when I might have been most needed.

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Thus I understand his reticence to reach out to me in any way but the most peremptory manner. Indeed, I’m sympathetic – there were many years when I’ve had a similar level of distance between myself and my own parents – I was, ironically, just discussing this with my mother recently, too. It’s been 6 months since I traded emails with my father. Even worse with my sister.

There is a realization that being left out of the loop with respect to Jeffrey’s life hurts a little bit. Just as my mother was telling me how it hurt her to have been left out of mine, years ago.

I choose not to feel anger, though. My reaction is to simply decide to accept my own flakiness, I guess. I am simply not meant for social intimacy. Not meant for family. Not meant for marriage. A certain residual sadness, such as comes with the first cool days of autumn.

For many years I have been a kind of de facto urban hermit. I have my work, but it is, as I already said, well-bounded. I go to work, I am social and even caring about my students and coworkers, but this is possible for me, psychologically, precisely because I am able to walk away from it each day and mostly not think about it the rest of the time.

This is my hermitage. It’s not really a new realization, either – I’ve realized it before. I have long been drawn to, and most comfortable with, a kind of eremetic lifestyle. It becomes more and clear to me, however. I exist at the center of my solitude.

I watch the world. Someday, I will stop watching the world.

[daily log: walking, 6 km]

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