I thought I would feel happy when the show was over. Instead I felt angry and depressed.
To the extent I was supposedly the show's manager, I felt the project was badly managed. So that's annoying. "No one to blame but myself," and all that. Perhaps the reason I so often resist being pushed into managerial roles is because I am incapable of deriving any sense of accomplishment – instead I pick apart what I've done and find the mistakes. I'm happiest as a worker drone, obviously, where I can feel a sense of accomplishment in surviving the mismanagement of others.
I might go into a more detailed "post mortem" at some point. Or just move on and forget it. I will post some video of it, when it becomes available.
There were no major disasters or failures – just A LOT of things that could have been done better, and a lot of unnecessary stress around all the small mistakes and failures.
I hope the kids had fun. And I hope the parents weren't too annoyed.
Anyway, I was exhausted last night and have to work today.
What I'm listening to right now.
Zeromancer, "Fractured."
Lyrics.
Can't you see my hands are clean
I'm as holy as can be
I will never do you harm
I am fractured
It can't ever be the same
Can't you see my hands
Are clean
Can't you see
I'm as holy as can be
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
Can't you see my hands are clean
I'm as holy as can be
I will never do you harm again
I am fractured
It can never be the same
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
I warned you a thousand times
It's like crying to the clouds
Why are you asking the questions
You already know the answer to?
Can't you see
My hands are clean
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
A good life
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
A good life
What kind of life is this?
What kind of life is this?
A good life
Is a quiet life
A good life
Is a quiet life
[daily log: walking, 6 km]