after several days of struggling to stay awake (partly i know its the new higher powered pain medication i started last thursday), this morning at 4 am i woke up with one of my "cant get back to sleep" insomnias. generally if i get insomnia its of this type. really, the two insomnias need different names – i hate that whenever i talk about insomnia i have to clarify what type. . . anyone have suggestions for a clearer name for them?
actually, in the end it wasnt so bad – i was free to transition to consciousness unhurriedly. i meditated some, "successfully" for the first time in a while; then i had a very slow breakfast of nurungji [burnt rice porridge] (slow is the only way i can eat these days – the bowl of porridge took me a good 45 minutes), and by the time i was walking to the hospital i was even smiling to myself in pouring rain.
admittedly the rain helped. im very weird, and show my northern california origins: rain is without fail comforting.
Rain is nourishing to the earth and all its life forms, so being glad of it seems logical to me.
I’ll have to ponder the insomnia classification question. I wonder if there are medical distinctions for the various flavors of insomnia?
Good for you for staying on the path, and not getting too discouraged by lack of sleep and length of breakfast.
Hugs from all of us, Sarah & Boys