Yesterday evening my friend Seungbae came out to Ilsan. He really is a good friend. He gave me a hanja lesson, I helped him with deciphering a Spanish-language email he had received in connection with his work, and we walked around Ilsan.
I felt really tired but I enjoyed hanging out with him. He's worried that with Andrew gone I'll get isolated and into a negative rut, but really I don't think that's the case. I worked hard to convince him of that. I actually feel that I derive some energy from my solitude. With Andrew gone, this day, Sunday, is going to be my first day of utter solitude since before I went in the hospital, and I plan to fully relish it. With lots of doing nothing, reading, napping, or whatever.
I slept in this morning, and it was foggy outside. I had had some unpleasant dreams about hospitals, which I don't remember the details of. I tried to eat some fruit for breakfast but it wasn't very fun to eat – flavorless and the textures weren't working. So I had some yogurt. And I made coffee. Which I smelled but basically didn't drink.
What I'm listening to right now.
Alt-J, "Matilda" from B&B on Vimeo.
