Caveat: Hagwon Crunchmode

I've definitely returned to hagwon work – I put in 11 hours yesterday.  It's going to be a long week.

But then, as people know, I have workaholic tendencies, given the right motivational structures.  The public school job was structured in such a way that workaholism was essentially irrelevant if not downright impossible, and all those idle hours took a weird kind of toll on my psyche, maybe.  I seem to seek out and/or prefer the psychic toll exacted by working too much over that correlated with working too little.   Is this virtue?  I actually don't think so.  It's escapism and reality-avoidance, mostly.  Just like those years in Burbank, the 80 hour weeks.  The year in Long Beach / Newport Beach took it a step too far, and the 100 hour workweek was unsustainable. 

OK, this is rambling and not going anywhere and vaguely self-hating.  Whatever.

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