I left the small world of Arthur's land at Port St Nicholas, Alaska, this morning. It's very beautiful, there, but I'm not sure I could ever live there. Seems like I'm a city person.
["back-post": written 2009-10-30, posted 2009-11-02]
Begin weird dream.
I'm sitting around in a place… an unfamiliar institutional setting of some kind.
We're in Korea, but no one there is Korean. One of those dream-facts that are simply "known," that we're in Korea.
We're discussing veganism. I'm pontificating: veganism is a good idea, but it's like right actions for the wrong reasons… it's just like so many other health-related fads and panics.
Think about religion, in the same way: right actions for wrong reasons.
Well, the others are agreeing or disagreeing, but politely. Polite discourse.
Some really old-looking man comes in, with a poofy white beard and wild hair, but neatly dressed. looks a little bit like Victor Maclane (remember him?). I wonder, is the place we're sitting around actually the Casa, in Mexico City?
He comes in, bows politely, and indicates that he needs access to an electrical outlet behind someone's chair. We rearrange ourselves and let him set up his device. The device looks like something related to cookery. But he simply turns it on and then leaves the room, a-puttering.
And suddenly this heavy, repetitive baseline begins, and a melody in low-tones begins to rattle over and over. It sounds as if it's being played on only the bottom octave of the piano: dun-da-duh-dun-da-duh-dun-da-duh-dunn-dunn. But a catchy little hook melody, all the same. Well, something like that. Really, it's like a club or rave dj track.
The noise is coming out of the device the old man plugged in. The old man is standing in the doorway, looking back at our alarmed expressions, grinning mischieviously.
What's with that?
End weird dream.
I went on a drive today, just to go exploring. During all my time here, back in 98, I didn't do much exploring beyond Craig and Klawock (which are the island's "twin city" metropolis, with something around 2000 inhabitants, combined).
So I drove up to Coffman Cove, which is where the ferries from Petersburg and Wrangell stop, then I went down a 40 mile dirt road along the east coast of the island to Thorne Bay, thence back to Klawock. A big circle.
Driving on these old forest service logging roads is all about dodging potholes. I made a video of the drive along the Port Saint Nicholas Road from Arthur's place into Craig. It's 8 miles, but takes 25 minutes, dodging potholes all the way. I'll post it, when I get some bandwidth.
Today, about halfway between Coffman Cove and Thorne Bay, I saw a downed tree across the road [see pic at right]. Someone had used to a chainsaw to carve a path exactly pickup-truck-sized through the branches and under the main trunk of the tree. I took a picture.
OK, more later.
["back post": written/created 2009-11-09]
Here is a video I made of a trip to the post office from Arthur's house in Alaska. I thought it would make a nice contrast with the one I did in August of my trip to the bookstore in Seoul.
Soundtrack is Cat Stevens' "On the Road to Find Out." We went on the road. And we found out.
"World's largest free-range lunatic asylum" was the phrase used by one of Arthur's neighbors out here on Port Saint Nicholas Road to describe Southeast Alaska. Sounds about right, maybe.
Many people who come out to such remote locations as this extoll the amazing experience of a night sky littered with thousands of stars with absolutely no interference from the lights of civilization. But personally, I find the experience of stepping outside in the middle of the night to be much more amazing when the sky is heavily overcast: it's a thick, deep blackness that is unparalleled. Nothing can be seen at all. Zero light. Yet the sky is above, you can smell the salt air of the fiord at your feet, the trees, the eternal drizzle.
My uncle Arthur's house is beyond cell-phone range, DSL (that he's "borrowing" from the neighbor via wi-fi) is spotty, and it's been down anyway because of a tree-branch-thru-wires at around mile-marker 2.5 on the round-the-bay road. So… I've been off-line, until today, coming into town to the Craig Public Library to go on wi-fi and make this post.
But I'm enjoying my visit, and being out in about as middle-of-nowhere as one can get, here on Prince Of Wales Island, Alaska.
More later, then… for next time I come into town.
It was actually almost clear when I arrived. But that's pretty rare, in Southeast Alaska. Mostly, it's about rain and gusty wind. I think I saw somewhere that Ketchikan is the rainiest city in the US — not sure if it's true, but it's got to be near the top of the list, anyway.
Unlike everyone's image or expectation of Alaska, much of the Southeast isn't snowy or frozen, even in winter. When I stayed here in 98 for several months, I only actually saw snow twice, and both times is was a damp rain-to-snow-to-rain that never got around to sticking to the ground.
I walked around some last night, but there wasn't much to see. The part of Ketchikan where my motel is has a couple of high-rise apartment buildings, which seems downright strange for a rural American city of less than 10,000 inhabitants — it fits in better with what I would call an "Asian" model of urban development: the idea of high density plunked down in the middle of nothing. I don't remember those apartment buildings from before, but when I was here before, I didn't spend much time in Ketchikan.
I'm flying to Ketchikan today, to visit with my uncle.
So much for the "low carbon footprint" lifestyle, eh? Driving everywhere. Flying everywhere. Uh… carbon guilt.
(oda ambigua a la gran ciudad de El-ley)
La persona típica lleva varias patrias en su alma. A mí, me pertenece un media docena, al menos. Entre estas patrias, de alguna manera, la metrópolis de Los Ángeles podría ser la patria más patria de todas, porque aquí nació mi padre y también su padre, mi abuelo: así, patria de padres.
Yo, nacido de otro lado, entre niebla y lluvias y una infinidad de coníferos, nunca sentía ningún amor por la gran ciudad de mis abuelos; ciudad de asfalto y desierto y carreteras y palmeras y grandes shopping malls tras otras shopping malls. Pués, por lo menos, no cuando de niño. Sin embargo, era siempre un lugar fascinante, desafiante, y de sueños. Podría contemplar el smog con una claridad insólita.
Años después, mi papá volvió al Pueblo de Nuestra Señora la Reina de Los Ángeles de Poríncula. Yo también he logrado acumular una quinta parte de una vida humana vivida acá. Ahora amo a Los Ángeles, tal vez porque la odio también, y vice versa.
Me encanta encontrarme en un Starbucks cualquiera, y darme cuenta de que la joven a mi derecha está quejandose de algo trivial con su madre en el cellphone, en coreano, mientras la mujer profesional al otro lado está explicando algún procedimiento médico, en ruso, mientras veo en frente, por la ventana, un anuncio al otro lado de la calle en la escritura impenetrable (para mí) del idioma armenio. Y todo es normal.
Me encanta manejar por tres horas en carretera, arriba del 65 millas por hora, y no haber podido salir de la megalópolis.
Me encanta la silueta de unas palmeras sobre las montañas.
Padezco un amor ambíguo, porque también la odio. Odio el calor de casi todos los días, y lo aburrido que es el clima. Odio la carencia de transporte público adecuado. Odio su solipsismo cultural.
Es patria, pero no es patria querida. Es patria ambívala, media querida, de índole casi aleatoria o accidental.
All the years that I lived here, I never did much stuff like this: my brother has a friend who works at a cinema in Hollywood, and they spontaneously invited me to a "special screening" there on Friday night. It was a cinema screening of some episodes of "The Guild," a web-based video series, followed by a screening of "Dr Horrible's Sing-Along Blog" – the title alone should give you some idea of the sheer extent of the genre-bending that was going on. I liked both – I had actually been aware of (but had never seen) "The Guild," but "Dr Horrible" was completely new to me, though I'd have been interested in it immediately, since it's a Joss Whedon project, in part (Whedon created Firefly / Serenity, for example).
And several of the actors / directors / producers of the projects were there, too, as a "panel" to answer audience questions, afterwards. So I got to see Whedon and several of his talented brothers and other various writers and collaborators in the two projects (which were intertwined creatively but not at all plot-wise).
Overall, it was a fun night.
Today, I went to Mojave (a small town out in the Mojave desert about 70 miles north of L.A.) where my dad's significant other's house is, and my dad and she and I hung out for the day just chatting and such, mostly.
I spent a major portion of yesterday visiting my old haunts in Burbank, where I worked at Paradise Corporation (a pseudonym) from 1998 through the end of 2004. As large corporations go, it's pretty much run-of-the-mill, but as a work environment that brought out the best in me and helped me to grow and learn, it was a fabulous place. Three of the best bosses I've ever had were there, and the three of them are still working there, and I got to see each of them. Luz (who was my first boss when I started as a temp worker in the AR department) is now in Finance, and Tom and Carol are still holding down the fort in National Accounts, which was my most accommodating home there.
I also got to visit with my crypto-sister Joanne, as well as Gina and Judy and Marina and Oscar and Tracy and Diana. And I had a great chat with Kevin in finance, who was my "best customer" for complex business analytics and reporting off the data warehouse. Lastly, I saw Spot and Karen in IT, where I wasn't always completely at home, but those two as individuals were reliable and welcoming team-mates, back during my abbreviated sojourn as an "official" programmer/analyst (as opposed to my longer and somewhat more successful career as a "stealth" data warehouse hacker working for the sales and marketing people).
Anyway, this is a "shout out" and thanks to everyone I saw there: I often think of my time there very positively, and I feel grateful for the genuine friendship they offered me, which is often hard to come by in a workplace.
OK. I'll be the first to admit that maybe North Hollywood isn't the most representative population sample.
I had my third major experience of "reverse culture shock" today. The first was in the grocery store on my first visit. The second was at that social gathering with my friend Bob's friends. And now… just wandering around.
I took my truck in to the dealer for its 100,000 mile service (the actual dealer where I originally bought it, which they thought was weird because it's got Minnesota plates and all that). But they took a long time to do it, and so I killed some time by walking around my old stomping grounds in Toluca Lake and Noho (North Hollywood).
Boy, there sure are a lot of weirdos. I suppose there might be a lot of weirdos in Korea, too, but I don't notice them because I'm not as tuned in to the cultural norms they might be breaking. Perhaps because, ultimately, in Korea, I'm the weirdo.
How is it that I came to quit my job as a database programmer and become a teacher in Korea?
I came across a little refrigerator magnet that said "Leap and the net will appear." At the moment, I can't remember if I found it or if it was given to me by someone, to be honest. Actually, it's possible my father gave it to me.
But I had it stuck to my refrigerator for some time, and I guess at some point, I simply leaped.
Life goes in circles, sometimes. Or spirals. But you find yourself back where you once were, before, and you wonder if you've gone anywhere, or done anything.
Thus it is for me, sitting in this corner of my father's living room. 11 years ago was nearly the lowest point in my life, and I'm very greatful to my father for the help he gave to me at that time, but there is also some psychological difficulty attached to sitting in this same corner, gazing out across my father's musty and (too) cluttered living room, and recalling that time. The air and my heart feel equally heavy and thick.
I'm feeling anxious about the "quality time" I need to go spend with my accountant, today. The long procrastination on the tax issue is finally coming to an end.
And meanwhile, to pass some time, I've been surfing blogs on the topic of Korea, and finding all kinds of reasons why I don't want to go back there, after very nearly convincing myself that that's what I really wanted to do. I'm vacillating. Or oscillating (like one of those murderous Korean household fans). Sigh.
I made this video while visiting my nephews in Phoenix.
["back post": written / created 2009-10-12]
I'm off to the land of LA.
We saw some buffalo while driving across northeastern New Mexico yesterday. And some mountains and stuff like that. Here's a video of the buffalo. (Note that the title for this blog is a grammatically correct sentence in English, although the buffalo we saw weren't, in fact, "buffalo buffalo," but rather "new mexico buffalo").